C NOTE's blog: "fear"

with a new year comes a new ring on this stump we call life. So yeah i just sorta lost a friend before the new year, which things didnt happen the way they did and if i could go back i would change things so it never happened but im not a time machine and im not lucky enough to have a CLICK remote so i guess i got to move on and just let things slide for a bit. I know me and her will be friends again before long, im an addictive person and once ive touched someones life they dont seem to like it when im not around doin what i do best, makin them smile when they need to the most so with this new year comes new wishes, new dreams and a new chance...lets all make the most of it

so last night me and my friends were partying, drinkin, tokin, i even popped a hit of E to change up my night some so i could drink more...anyway i was all good most of the night then my friends seen a guy walk past the apartment with a rifle in hand, no normally i would have thought eh whatever no big deal but from the trip i was on from the E i got right paranoid and for the first time ever in my life i was scared shitless, thought i was gonna die last night and eveything...luckily one of the guys that was here partyin decided to lie to me and tell me that he saw the guy get in a car and leave, so that calmed me down and made everything good again. fear is a state of mind, once you lose your mind tyou lose your ability to fear...well last night i found my mind