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Well mom came back from the doctors today and she recieved her cardio clearance for her surgery. They put urgent need for surgery and listed her stage as stage iv breast cancer. I did some research and although the doctors say they caught it early and she will be fine, it is very hard to focus. My mother say she is not worried but I have been crying all morning. I know that my mother will be sick for a while and that she will probably have to have radiation and chemo but hopefully what I read is not all true and she may be the exception to the rule. I am handling it a lot better then my brother though, he refuses to deal with it at all. He says he can't. Well what happens if something happens, he will have to deal with it then huh? I do not know what he expects, it will not just go away if he ignores it. Nothing ever just goes away if you ignore it. If you pray, please keep her in your prayers. Below is some info links on cancer and the stages.

http://www.breastcancer.org/symptoms/diagnosis/staging.jsp

http://www.imaginis.com/breast-health/advanced-metastatic-breast-cancer-1

http://www.imaginis.com/breast-health/staging-and-survival-rates-of-breast-cancer-3

http://www.cancer.org/docroot/CRI/content/CRI_2_4_4X_Treatment_by_Stage_Breast_Cancer_5.asp

Well my mother just recently went in for her first biopsy on a lump the doctor found in her right breast. It was about the size of a quarter. It was an out patient procedure where they numbed the area and stuck a needle half the size around as a pencil in and removed the tissue for testing. When the doctor took the first sample, a large portion was removed so when he began to take another sample he removed the rest of the mass. The doctor believes that he got all the mass and now we are waiting to hear on the sample. Hopefully it is benign and not malignant at all. If it is malignant then my mother will have to have chemotherapy. When they do a biopsy they also put a metal marker in the area of the mass to mark where there was a mass. If another mass shows up later in the same spot then it is very likely the mass was not all removed, if a mass forms in another area then it has probably spread or there is another cluster of cancer starting.

Just coming back after a week and a half battle with a terrible flu. I was vomitting, aching all over, fever of 104 degrees, delirious, super migraine headaches and severe weakness. I didn't know if I was coming or going. I do know that my fiancee was such a godsend to me and was so worried for my health that he was barely able to sleep at all. He watched over me faithfully and without  thought for his own health. He fed me, helped me to the restroom, bathe me, get me things to drink, took my temperture and gave me my medicine.  I do not know what I would have done without him because most the time I felt like dying. It was that bad. I just wanted to let everyone know where I was at and to say thank you in writing to my baby. I love you so much baby and I am so glad you were there for me. I love you with all my heart baby.

My son finally came for his first home visit in two and a half years. I have had to endure many terrible emotions since he was take but through it all I have waited patiently and hopeful for his return. Well he has not came home for good but he did get a weekend visit. It did us all a world of good and I still can not believe that I got to see my baby boy. His older brother that is usually very depressed and secluded, actually smiled and had a good time. I never saw him so happy, not since before his brother was taken and put in a group home. My youngest visiting son helped me clean, wash clothes, played cards, made his room his own and even cooked me sunday breakfast. Although I slept in and so he ate it instead, lol. We did not get to do as much as what we planned to do but we did bond a lot. We did not want to say farewell today and I almost cried so hard but I have to hope for more time in the future. This will be a step in getting my son home for good and try to patch up our broken family that has had so many ups and downs.

I have been going through some entense pain that has been making me crazy. The doctors and some of my family thought that it might be kidney stones or diverticulitis. After going to the hospital and getting some tests there it was seen that all the tests came back clear. They could not explain the entense pain that I was feeling because the cause was unknown. I went to see my doctor and when he saw the hospital test results and examined me a little, he determied it was musclar in nature. Most likely a tore muscle in my mid left side. He gave me a hang in there look with perscriptions and I hoped the pain would go away. By late evening I was having the extreme pain and muscle spasms that were very severe. I ended up going back to the hospital because the medicine that my doctor had given me was not strong enough at all. The hospital gave me a shot of morphine as well as a muscle relaxer and some perscriptions for some medicine that was much stronger. When I got home I cound actually lay down with minimal pain and conk out. I was able to sleep through an get so quality sleep for a change. This was such a welcome change over the pain.