myangel's blog: "ex"

What’s in a memory? An echo, a shadow of what used to be. The silhouette of the past casting darkness over the present or the future. An unattainable description of utopian life; a memory is a daydream of yesterday. Visions of the past are captured in the wind, free to come and go as they please. No notice, no notification, just whimsical entrances, departing as quickly as they came. Comparable to the shore line. Waves of emotions crashing at my feet, with no water to be seen. Suddenly, a rapture of water floods my being. It engulfs me, it drowns me, and in an instant, it is gone. Only footprints and water marks are left, as the raving water torments me no more. In the aftermath, the footprints on the shore line, are just that, a memory of the crashing waves that pounded their strength time and time again. You too, crash down upon me, time and time again, like the shore line, even if only in a memory. PLEASE, DO NOT RIP MY PRIVATE MATERIAL. THESE ARE MY INTERNAL, PRIVATE AND REAL EMOTIONS. PLEASE RESPECT THAT, THANK YOU.

Inside A spider web of doubt, surrounds my soul. It’s sticky strands, lock my existence into place. Into a shadow of eternal blackness. In an empty bottomless pit of hate. Anxiety and fear waste my time away. I enjoy the ride, a roller coaster of fear. On which I dread the end, but fear the beginning. To live a life of lifeless living, to live through a deadly end. I say goodbye to you on the outside, but will always hold on, on the inside. PLEASE DON'T RIP MY PRIVATE MATERIAL. THESE ARE MY PRIVATE AND REAL EMOTIONS. PLEASE RESPECT THAT, THANK YOU.

Not Knowing I’ve met you once before, But you had a different face, I’ve met you once before, But you never knew my name, I’ve met you once before, But you never thought twice, I’ve met you once before, But you walked right past me, I’ve met you once before, But you always denied my presence, I’ve met you once before, But you never saw my soul, I’ve met you once before, But you heard my heart and ran, I’ve met you only once before, But you knew you could hurt me, I’ve met you only once before, But you took a second glance, I’ve met you only once before, But you made a difference to me, I’ve met you only once before, But you made me think you cared, I’ve met you only once before, But you made me wish I didn’t. PLEASE DON'T RIP MY PRIVATE MATERIAL. THESE ARE MY PRIVATE AND REAL EMOTIONS. PLEASE RESPECT THAT, THANK YOU.