IJ's blog: "Everything"

She caught my eye, with an angelic smile The kind that takes your breath away But so much more than a pretty face I've learned from our talks and texts, each day As luck would have it, she wonders about me She’s curious to know about the man that I am Someone I feel I could hold onto forever Don’t come with bullshit, she won’t give a damn She makes me smile daily, without even trying And she hasn’t the slightest idea it seems Blind to the fact that she’s totally caught me Without any effort she invaded my dreams So now that I have her the test is to keep her Try to be everything, there is in me to be To tell her each day that she’s all that I’ve wanted And what an honor it is… to have her by me…

My god I love this woman so that I can almost feel her touch when I sit back and watch that smile Is it possible to want THIS much? All thru my days while hard at work her smile is always on my mind thru stinging sweat and burning cuts no matter what, she's first in line I'll spoil her with the little things I'll rub her back, I'll hold her hand i'll suck the bean till she passes out and she'll wake up knowing I'm her man A man who will do almost anything if it will shine, that smile on me I'm so in love with you, Danielle I'm hoping this poem helps you see...

falling faster, out of control my twisted reality, the loss of my mind along the way, I've lost my reason now I'm desperately searching for what i can't find the need to hurt others, makes my hands tremble the thought of their screaming, give me a chill the fear in their eyes looking up at me pleading as i'm crushing their bodies and breaking their will like the tides in the ocean, i feel my mind churning my sanity, grown weak now, takes a step back paving the way for the evil inside me to press it's way forward to start it's attack it makes the dreams come and god how they scare me the bodies broken open...blood fills this place as the demon takes over, i again raise the hatchet with a start I awaken...but with a smile on my face

given the chance, the evil consumes me i lash out at nothing, awake now i'm shaking as long as the lights on or i can hear talking i feel like my minds not just his for the taking i hate how the demon's distort my perseptions and make all my dark thoughts feel kinda right i spend all my days in a drug induced prison silently fearing the comming of night cause the dark brings the demons..the ones i'm afraid of they make my mind rancid, all the death in my head i'm deafned by shreiking as they cry out their furies i plug my ears humming... alone in my bed i try to make sense of this life that i'm living i try not to give up, to take that last breath i'm just so damn tired, my need to live failing i long for a pistol...i long for my death now deep in depression, i feel my mind freezing the whispered voice echos,"it's time to be free." evil thoughts pushing their way to the surface now the man in the mirror... is no longer me.

The smile that shook me to my core someone tried to take my heart it almost worked... I said, almost how do you pull, one soul apart? so hard to keep it, down inside I remember when my heart was breaking my vision blurs, my ears they're ringing I can not stop my hands from shaking But then your smile breaks thru my haze and your peaceful love, it turns my head I see that you’re still right beside me and it starts to fade... all that was said I feel your love flow all around me just one more test, but we made it thru it seems that this one, has brought us closer oh god, how I want for the day I hold you I have myself braced for no early December It seems once again, that life’s testing our love But don’t worry baby, I’d wait till forever For the touch of your hand, my gift from above

amazing what her love can do I've sat and pondered it awhile I feel like I can breathe again it seems I haven't lost her smile I tried with everything I have to just sit back and hope she'd see that sometimes love needs one more chance and now shes back where she should be my heart is full of love for her bruised from the pinch, it is no dream because I feel that love returned look in my eye.. you'll see the gleam Just one more chance to let her know that there are just, so many ways to keep her right there on my mind all thru my nights.. all thru my days

Another day that I have spent just staring at your smile in disbelief because your mine almost as if I'm in denile so thankful that I have your heart so honored that I call you mine oh what I’d give to hold you close so much the same that it’s a sign a sign that this one is for real so real is seems like destiny two hearts that seem to beat as one forever… if it’s left up to me one day soon… I’ll get my chance to hold you close, to make you feel that you’ve become my everything to show you all this love is real until that day I’ll let you know in as many ways that I feel I can that you’re everything I’ll ever want and how honored I feel that I am your man…

I see you smile. I close my eyes and wake up here without you another dream, spent by your side as we love the way you're suppose to we made it thru, another breath our hearts still beat together the challenges our love has faced and all the shit we've had to weather but worry not, oh love of mine it has made me want you more and I did not think that possible but I've never wanted like this before until that night, I hold you close and show you what true love can be from now till then, you need to know your everything I'll want for me...