boring rainy days cause me to think...and well thinking isn't always a good thing...but often the result isn't what i had intended when i started...so enjoy, i don't know where this is going but we can figure it out together.
so not that i am dying to be with someone or anything but it would be nice. i miss the stupid shit that you take for granted ya know. holding hands, cuddling and kissing have to be the things i miss most about having someone in my life.
the worst part is i think that my last relationship was pretty much BS for the whole 5 months of it and had me hating all men for a while after...wondering in fact if love was real.
then of course its back to the world of meeting people and dating which, is THE most awkward thing in the world. you like someone, find them attractive, start to talk to them, meet them, things seem ok then the talking stops, so you move on. it's a vicious cycle of crap.
so i guess that brings me to now...where i think i like this kid, who i have never met, or even talked to on the phone...you know how good 'ole fubar and myspace work. he seems sweet, pretty damn cool, tattooed...loves mary jane...but i cant help but assume it will go wrong..cause in the end i have to wonder...
is love real?
