So my stint of insomnia and depression has had me deep in thought over this past week... thoughts I was unable to avoid this time. This is a long road I am on and I am thankful for the close friends I have, because without them I would probably still be drinking from last night... I am not perfect I am far from it, but I am doing my best to better myself everyday. I am tired of feeling as if I am an untouchable.
I am tired of looking around and feeling alone even when in a group of caring friends. I am tired of feeling unacceptable to others. I am a quiet and shy person one that wears his heart on his sleeve and is hurt a lot easier than anyone realizes. I have spent half of my life hiding. Hiding my feelings and thoughts and desires, because honestly I had been beaten down to the ground and those scars have never really healed.
At this point honestly I feel this has needed to be said for some time. whether publicly or just to myself but at least this way there may be some new found understanding of me from my friends on here. Just like everyone else I want someone by my side that is willing to look at me, accept me, and know that I am always going to do my best to make things better. If they do not wish to see it, then fine, I don't need them in my life.
