Draga76's blog: "Draga's Copyrighted Poetry"

God I have only one plea, that you not take my mother away from me. She gave me life To lose her would cut like a knife. I die inside to see her in pain, and helplessly I cry in vane! Oh please God I beg of thee Do not take my mother away from me. She is not just a mother for to me, she is a friend like no other. Her love and strength has taught me well I love her so much, can't you tell? I know we can not escape death but I shall die with her as she takes her last breath. So I beg of you don't let it be, That you should take my mother away from me!!!

Born into the world I could not see The cross to bare that was passed on to me. These entities inside my brain, At first made me think I was insane. Not knowing what was wrong and wondering why, Destroyed myself esteem and I wanted to die. It was too much to endure, this pain and strife, It got to the point I wanted to take my life. Learning from doctors these demons in my head had names, Little monsters that loved to play head games. ADHD and Bipolar had caused my mental demise, Laughing at my fears and the tears in my eyes. So now that I know what is the case, How shall I fit into the human race? Forever viewed as a social outcast, I knew I shall never fit in as long as this last. In a pool of ducks, I am the ugly one, Trapped in the dark not able to see the sun. To be only ridiculed and never understood, I have always been the freak of the neighborhood. Alone in the world with no one to relate, These demons were out to seal my fate. Suddenly, a ray of hope was dropped at my door, Something that would help me no longer feel like dirt on the floor. The wise doctors devised a magic potion, Of medicine that would cure this painful emotion. Then, finally, I was able to see the light, I don't have to be locked into the dark of night. With pen and paper in hand, I decided to make a stand. The words that came from my very soul, At last happiness had filled this empty hole. Still I felt like a swan drifting alone in space, Until fate brought me to this magical place. My prayers were answered, this swan has finally found a place to dwell. The with other swans with tales to tell. I had found those, Who share my woes. They taught me well that what we have is a gift, Not to be bring you down, but give you a lift, A team of leaders, with a creative mind, They gave me strength, I never thought I would find. They taken my broken heart and gave it joy, People who are like me either girl or boy. I am amazed how simular we think, I like to call it the ADD link. For there are times our thoughts are in tuned to one another. We can feel or see inside of our sister or brother. For the ones like us who are kicked to the ground, We shall bring comfort to all that come around. To help them learn and to make do, Yes, my friend, we can help pull you through. Through the years I have grown, Now I want to share all I have known. Before, I would not believe I would survive, But today my communtity of swans makes me feel alive. The more time I share with my second family, All this time a curse it did not have to be. I shall take what I have learned and make these demons my salvation, You will see me leave my mark across the nation!

Now keep in mind I am not a holy roller but there is good and evil and life is about choices..and in one of my favorite movies the "Renissance Man" Rago says one of the best lines I have ever heard. "The Choices we make dictate the life we lead." So with that being said...I'm [posting this one.. Tremble all ye Cowards in fear, For the day of your death is drawing near. No need to cry, so save your tears, You knew eventually this day would come despite your many fears. Will your soul perish in the flames, or will you be saved? We will all be judged for our whole lives and of how we have behaved. Happy is the soul who soars to the sun, You were blessed by holy waters of faith and your sins will be undone. Damned is the soul when mother earth opens her mighty shell, Demons will come to damn you to hell. For the happy souls who live in his name, You may leave this earth untainted by shame. You have lived life with goodness in your heart. Truly you are blessed right from the start. God has welcomed you into his kingdom, Heaven is yours to enjoy eternal serenity and freedom. For those who have surrendered to Satan's Touch, Prepare to meet him, for you love him so much. Turning from God, it is the devil you trust. You have caused the innocents pain and death for power is your lust. Destroying your soul by giving into the Devil's Sin, But your MASTER laughs now let the burning begin! This tale I tell, I was taught to be so, Whether tis true, only in death will I know. We are all pawns in the battle of good vs evil, One false move, and our souls know No retrival. When I feel myself filled with hate, But I remember I was blessed with strength to save my fate. Spending my time trying to make sense of it all, From what I was taught it's up to you if you rise or fall.

When I found the internet, everything was brand new. I knew to prepare for many things The entire world come together on a cybernetic box. Still, one thing remained the same. It seemed the guys only wanted quick flings, Their routine and lines were as usual...LAME "Show me your's and I'll show you mine." What were they hoping for? A cybernetic 69? Just when I thought these fools were all I would find I was not prepared for a ray of light, No, I was not prepared for you. You are the only one I know who treats me kind. I am grateful that I met a man and not a boy, Who see's me as a woman and not a toy. To a woman that's rare, That the blessing that is you, is the answer to a prayer. Alas, be it my luck, There would the irony that is quite mean. We live in different states..MAN DOES THIS SUCK! Still, I want you to know that I love you, very much. My dearest friend, even tough we are miles apart, The distance between us is long, You are more to me than words on a screen, I do not need to feel your hands to know It is my heart you touch. I know the bond we have is strong. So You remain close to me in my heart. Please, do not fear my words of devotion, It is sad truth could be so cruel, I can not help but express my emotion. My heart feels strong, but my head is no fool. This is God's love story, so he writes the play. I leave it in his capable hands, Whether we are destined for friendship rings or wedding bands. Buddies or Lovers, your friend or your wife, I am happy to have you in my life. When I think of you, I shall smile either way. Even if friendship is to be our only fate, The Prince saved his princess before too late.

Another year comes to an end, and to the victims of Katrina, my prays I send. May they find a place to rest and food to eat, and get through the pain that lays at their feet. I pray for the familes of the lost, for they have paid a greater cost. What the floods did not destroy, cold hearts played with lives like a toy. In my darkest thoughts I think of sweet revenge, Those victimes whos death to avenge. They who left the helpless for dead, lets strap to a bed seal them in a water tight tomb and turn on the hose to share the same doom! but my inner dragon will then say, "To wish more ill, we would be no better than they. Heed these words to keep you wise. Sooner or later they will all pay for the victim's demise." Still, I should not dwell on the past, and I hope others learn from this and learn damn fast!

Woe to my heart, for my dreams that have fallen apart. Dreams of love and family die away, and everything seems impossible with everyday. I try and try to get out of this rut, but it always seems something always knocks me back down on my butt! Some are chosen for the easy life, It seems I was chosen for a world of strife. Was it something I have done wrong, that Karma keeps me singing this sad song? What penance must I perform, to calm this tragic storm? Someday, somehow, something has got to give, because damn it I want my turn in life to live!!!

Father, I must share this tale, for I too need closure. Once our bitter hearts did prevail. Nay, never speaking the words that needed exposure. As you drifted away into eternal slumber, Why didn't we make a stand? Too late now to disencumber, Your hour glass ran out of sand. I shall always regret how our bond went sour, but that one night that I shall never forget, when you proved love is a greater power. You came to me just in time You must have known I was losing my mind, Even in a dream, to see you was sublime. The dream is a treasure maps to secrets left behind. For someone who knew you well, and the demons you faced explained how it was hell. suddenly my pain had disappeared without a trace. I would have never known, If you would have never came to me in a dream, Even though .love was rarely shown, You never hated me like it did seem. Now that I know the facts, I can begin to forgive the man. I actually thank you for your acts because when I am a parent I have a plan. The times in our lives when we knew we were wrong, when the day my first child arrives, I would have learned to be strong. Despite all the anger and pain I know I am truly blessed, Never again will I think of you in vein, So, Dear Father, in peace may you rest. Personal note to my Father: This story is true, and I dedicate these words to you Dad, I miss you so much, For God's sake, Keep in touch..

My dear daughter, I come to you in a dream, There is so much I want to reveal, I know there is damage to your self esteem, but through the truth we can both heal. In death my soul can not rest, for in my life I never knew, how I made you feel second best, but crossing over I found this was true. You wanted to be loved, never knowing why I could not show affection. The more you pushed, the harder I shoved, You done all you could, but I demanded perfection. How hard you tried, Always doing what I asked and more. I may have said thank you, but a smile I did hide, I realize now, I should have done that before. There were things I should not have said, I thought it would make you tough, but it only damaged you instead. To tell you I'm sorry still doesn't seem good enough. No, there is no excuse, but I am a victim of my own childhood, not realizing I was passing on the abuse. Things could have been different if I would have understood. Tis' Ne'er too late for us to make peace, I must right this wrong and your anger must cease. Learn to let go, for you've hurt for too long Those who know my past and understand what I am saying now. Ask them to explain, for my moment has passed I wanted to be a father, but just did not know how. My dear daughter, I love you so and soon you will feel no sorrow, Let this message lead you where to go, and all will be well tomorrow. __________________

I envoke thee, Draga Protect my heart of stone. Protect the child Melly, For she can not fight the tears alone. Darkness calls once more and again she cries in vein. Within her heart, the only world she has known, is a world of pain. But you and I, Draga, can bring her to the light and show her how to make things right. The past will always haunt her heart. The wounds are deep and many a time she will weep but you are there always. Come forth, my Dragon, and remind her of better days.

This is for all u single guys on Fubar to read b4 u even think of playin with Draga's fire!!!! Draga, my dragon, protects my heart of stone. and gives me strength that I have never known. To all suitors who think my heart shall be tamed, Beware of the firey dragon that I have named. It is to her you must prove your worthiness, You can not do it with promises of tenderness, Actions speak louder than words you silly man, Try to get past him, If you think you can. Draga's eyes can see right through, Into the very deep heart of you. She can see right through your lies, You shall feel her rath, if it is you she despise. Oh believe me her fire is real, She will breath hot death and her flames you shall feel! If you can prove that you truly care, she will let you through and your life she will spare. If she lets you through, please be wise, That I am a woman and not your prize. Draga, my protector, will always be there to keep you at bay. I shall always need her and will never send her away. My heart of stone can't be broken. You'd be wise to head these words I have spoken. This stoned heart could be chipped away, If you show that you love me everyday. To chip the final peices is your final test. Please, SHOW ME you are better than the rest. When I love, I love with all of me, Is the test not worth what life could be?