Nucking Voo Futts Doo's blog: "doobastylin"

Rolling, Scrolling, Goofy grins go by, who are they, where are they, I wonder what they do, i have yet to see me but ive watched all of you, To the ones that mean more than Love I patiently wait for you to be near, Cause you just gotta hit this cronic shit that in holdin right here!!!

for any of ya'll that might care I'm gone until the 23, going to go play with fire and drum with a few hundred of my closest friends!!! Wish you where there!!!!! leave me some loving if ya think about it!!!

What were you today? was it what you wanted? I seen a cloud today that looked like a fairy kicked back on her wings..... yet it was just a cloud, it was magical to me... yet just a cloud, no thoughts, no pulse... yet the power to inspire me to be (not a fairy lol!!!) me, formless and free to be, yet curious what all you see.

It occured today to me what has been going on, that grim lil' pixie bitch "Self Pity" has been pertched on my shoulder for some time now, Today it was successfully dethrowned, cast apon the wind so to say... I realized that I thrive on the things not everyone can do, roofing, playin with fire, drumming all night and making sweet sweet love with my Lady... Now I tell myself "Be happy and love with all my heart...Cause tomorrow I may not get the chance, Nobody gets out of this reality alive... Big Huggs and a Smooch to any who may need them.

About a year and a half ago i was enlisting in the U.S Army, I passed all the tests and physical, 2 weeks before I was going to leave for boot camp i got custody of my son.... so I became a single parent b4 I could become a soldier.... I wanted to be soldier to prove myself to myself, now im a roofer to provide for my family, I will do anything for my family!!! Regardless how hot it is or how high off the ground I am there is a lil' thought in the back of my mind telling me Im nothing... I work hard, usually from sun up till sun down, I just want to know that Im worth what Ive been givin. How do I prove myself now??? What must I do to know???

on my way to work, the morning light was spreading across the sky, Fog in the low areas... passed by a place on the highway where a friend died... she had fallen asleep at the wheel... then my thought fadded into the fog and i seen my mothers face... she killed herself 5 years ago... then i remembered hearing from a friend of mine that was working as a waitress that my father had disowned me, he didnt even know she was as friend of mine... He was bragging about it... yet the bastard didnt tell me until i confronted him about it, My last words to him were " you know what type of a person says cold hearted things behind someones back instead of their face .... a bitch! closer to work the sky was clearing, seen a cloud that looked like a heart with a sword through it and this reminded me that i have a child that i have yet to meet & feel she will never want to..... worked for a few hours and slide off the roof!!! (im a roofer so i was supposed to be up there) Landed on my feet... walked to the crew truck and found out all my cig's where crushed when i went over the edge... Tomorrow offically scares the Hell out me,

I have failed at many things..... but i keep trying.... tomorrow is another day to atleast try, I will not give up.... EVER! ! ! I know there is a better place than this, My Faith holds me true, Even if only I believe.

The first time I layed eyes apon your heavenly grace I had no idea I would be chasing you, I plead with the heavens to bathe in your light, Your expressions change when I am allowed to gaze apon you, Your faces burned apon my mind, Forever within sight, Never within reach, Scorching winds within my heart, My own solitary Hell, Left to await the tolling of the bell

Are you holding it for me? A piece of it maybe? Does that mean it was broken? Would that be believing? Do you have one? Is it broken too? Perhaps it is still whole? Will you show me? Can I see? When will i know? Please?

The rainbow is on the horizon, I am headed to the other side of life, My home and Family awaits, No more excuses have I, 5 years have ticked by, My time for ease is gone, I'm litteraly jumping from a mountain top into a cactus bed, Insane I understand, Crazy is second nature, Returning to what I know Im good at...Scares the Hell outa me!!! Faith....Luck....Love will not let me fail I love all of you that I leave behind, The few that there are will always be in my heart, The time has come for me to grab the tail of the comet that is me,