So, I know this isn't supposed to be important, but it's on my mind (again). I'm 20 years old. I have had one boyfriend that amounted to anything, two if you count that, and have been kissed by a whopping 5 people (2 of those I really wasn't anticipating/enjoying), haven't been on a real date ever in my life, and I'm getting sick of it. I happen to be a kick-ass person, people! I mean, I may not be the prettiest button in the jar, but I have enough personality for two people on most days. I've been utterly single for 2 years, with no ENGLISH SPEAKING people that would actually like to get to know me. I promise, I'm not terrible... why do I never get the chance to show that to anybody? I mean, I have a LOT of love to offer somebody... but who? It makes me angry that a person can get hit on to no end online, but then in real life, I can't even get one single date with someone who has a decent number of functioning braincells. I guess I'm probably picky, but goodness I'm not turning people down! Is there some sign stuck to my back that says "friend" that makes sure people don't make the devastating mistake of letting me try to be more? I guess I'm just really upset with the fact that I'm always alone... I'm a social person... and I really wish/pray/hope that sometime I will be able to care for someone and have them care for me... I want to make someone happy, and I have a good heart that I need someone to hold on to.
