so this is what all i have lost from the whole situation with the guy i fell in love with (ville)that it all turned to hell... i have lost my friends, i have lost my trust in people, and now i am pretty much giving up on everything and moving back with my sister who at least still loves me very much, but apparetly will be the only family member that i will have left in my life to talk to as this whole situation brought to light my sexuality and my family cant live with it... so now i have been disowned, and will not be allowed to call and talk to my mother or father.. i am crushed that i have pretty much lost about everything in my life and it really hurts... i have had many fights with my family before, but this one is different.... my parents hate me now.... all because of something they NEVER would have found out if they hadnt been trying to research the "man i was in love with" who as it turned out was fake, so i lost my heart too... and i was doing so good putting it all behind me, until today when i found out i was disowned...
i just dont understand why people gotta hate others because they dont beleive in the same stuff.... this is one of the reasons it took me so long to finally admit i was bi... and the fact that i still love men and still want to marry just a man, doesnt mean anything to my parents... it is the fact that i have been with other women that has turned them against me.... i still love them very much, even if they no longer love me...because they dont have to like what i do...but damn it i am blood.... and that should count for more..
i gotta go...i cant stop crying....
