God here lately i have been thinking so much no one knows...i wished people could walk in my shoes and look at my world...sometimes its nice and sometimes its good its like that song from the judss..."love can build a bridge" but what if that bridge falls and your all alone in a big ocean of water?
what do you do? what do you do?
its like someone left you all alone and you have to find yourself out in the ocean with just you and what you have...
wtf im so lost in my life i dont know what to do anymore...but god if i knew i would be so happy
sorry guys i have had a long day today and i was on the phone with my friend eric and just thinking about what im typing right now oh great im hearing the best song from meatloaf "when you touch me like this"
makes me think of my love life lmao its shitty i wished i could find that one true guy, just that one true guy i could cuddle with and spend the rest of my life with...
i thought i did and i went 3 months through hell and it all came crashing down on me so bad i wanted to cut myself which im a ex cutter and god i just wanted to find a blade in my house and just cut my belly and i cry over this guy every night an he wants to put me through hell....goddamnit i cant win for loosing never!!!
and plus on top of all this my own father called me tonight and said i was a bad daughter because i wouldnt go and do crystal....you know atleast some one of you guys dont know what its like because you havent been beattin the hell outta you since you were 5 and plus cussed at by your father...god i would never wish on anyone to have the life i have and i am only 20 and i had to grow up fast in my life i have seen my brother beat the hell outta my mother 3 times and my dad beat the hell outta me you guys dont know how lucky you are untill you step into someone elses shoes...
ok im gonna shut up now....and no i dont want anyone to feel sorry for me because im not a sorry person im a good girl with a big heart and shit like that
love
cassie
