when we first met i was so excited.i couldnt belive someone so great was interested in me. the slightest touch from u sent a tingle through my body. when you bit my neck, i froze. i couldnt. belive how comfertable i felt with your arms around me.t hat kiss goodbye was so sweet. after that nite i made sure i was online every morning hoping you would atleast say hi. the gift you gave me made me the happiest i had been in a long time. just sitting with you on the couchwas so sweet. i nver thought you would actually ask me. altough it was weird for a min, i was so thrilled to b your g/f. just seeing you ALWAYS made my day brighter. going anywhere with you was always a trip :). that first (& only) nite we spend together was AMAZING. i loved just laying there in your arms. it was so nice to b wanted. but then i started to c and talk to you less and less/ then one day YOUR friend tells me that us beign together is a bad thing. the next day im told your talkin and tryin to fuck soem other gurl. i do the adult thing and ask u about it right away and instead of talking things out, you flip it around and make me feel like i did something wrong. i cried like a lil gurl those 2 days. then as if that wasnt bad enough, after i tell you i'll let it all go, YOUR friend tells me that your STILL married. it was as thought my whole world just crashed down around me. i couldnt belive you would lie like that to me. we had actually said I LOVE YOU to each other and this is how you treat me??? i guess it was all just words to u. now i dont want u to think you had to say it, hell we could have gone on forever with out saying it. for me actions me SO much more then words. but that too i let go, so we moved on and talked aobut me moving. time came and went and the BIG DAY arrived. and to my surprise, you NEVER showed. i called and got a "story" and was told you would call me back, that too never happend. i was so crushed. that someone i truly cared about would do that to me. now i cant say that there wasnt a part of me that didnt know it would happen, but i gave u the benefit of doubt. the thing that did truly surprise me was i didnt cry. not one single tear. i learned the next day that you had been spending your time with *****. THAT hurt. me being the native, stupid, lil gurl i am, i waited to hear from you all weekend. come monday morning i gave up. (btw, you should have never made a promise to my mother. THAT pissed me off. i figured you had already moved on, i should too so that nite i went to see ***** ( and jsut to let you know i spent the nite hanging out with him, the nite b4 i was supposed to move). now i have to admit that whut you did affected me, but i moved through the stages rather quickly. which i think is a very good thing. but i despised you for a while. you c your actions were only the start to the bad shit that i went through. c i quit my job b/c of YOU, which led to me being kicked out of the place i was staying. which led to me ending up in detroit again with my mom and her abusive drunk of a b/f. which led to him gettin pissed obut me being there. which led to me and mom seeking out to get away from him. which led to me not knowing where i was goin go. ALL THANKS TO YOU not being able to keep your word. but with out you i found a place to go and still got out of warren. so u c i CAN live without you. sure you made me feel better during some really fuckd up times, but YOU are the reason my lyfe took the quick nasty turn that it did. but with that said. i would like to THANK YOU. b/c if it wasnt for you pulling that bs, i would never had found out just how strong i am. and i NEVER would have been with ***** that nite and i would have never had that conversation with him that shed so much light on him and made me RESPECT him so much more. so i guess whut im tryin to say is without you coming in and leaving my lyfe like you did, i wouldnt have learned so much. and while it still irritates me to c you with another, i wish you the best, weather you stay with ***** or you work shit out with your wife. and i truly hope that your gurl never has to go through the shit that u put gurls trough, that i woundnt wish on anyone.
