Justice for all's blog: "Dealing with my crap..lol"

Who am i? I am no one I sit looking at you..gazing from afar You do not know me..But i know who you are why is it you want to be what you are not Reading lifes script while losing the plot Where did I go wrong where did I fall? Would You notice me if i was someone else? what would i have to do to make you see me? nothing of course it just wasn't to be The blade licks my skin, kissing slowly sinking in, My blood flows out like water on dirt Trying to cope without feeling the hurt Surrounded by all feeling all alone My Mind is my shelter my only home I hate my thoughts I hate myself Stuck with me and no one else Why do I think you would care? I talk to myself and even I am not there tears run down as they break free Who Am i? I Am Nobody

I took this picture just for you hoping you would like it too It's just me standing in the rain trying not to show the pain Pain i feel inside my heart because we were so far apart look at this and think of me And know I always think of you your in my heart, in my dreams I won't go I won't ever leave Remember back when we had fun? remember when I was the only one Remember when, you would say, I love you more, each and everyday I remember, you looking in my eyes And I remember you telling lies So look at this and think of me And know I always think of you your in my heart, in my dreams I won't go I won't ever leave I didn't see it coming, but I should have I wasn't good, and I wasn't bad Nothing on earth that I could do, I was starting, you were through And when you left, I had to cry Cause not one tear left your eye So Look at this and think of me I don't think of you anymore Not my heart, not my dream It ended when you closed the door

Umm ok I am going through my monthly bull...Help me out if you know me on here... I am debating if I should regrow my mustache or shave it off and stay gotee only..Check out my last pic and let me know leave me a comment on the pic too I have like no comments on half of them and that makes me sad...( only cause i am a gay little c*nt ) thx J

I had thoughts of calling you up today but if you answered I had nothing to say my words left me long ago as time ran out The day things changed and my life drained I start to light a smoke, as tears come Holding them back i begin to choke trying hard to be the man people expect it's never enough I've got nothing left where do I go from here, where can i turn? I have gone as far as i know how to They say you live and you learn I tried it and now i'm not so sure I sit outside as the rains falls down letting it flood and wash you out streaming down with tears that i taste secretly wishing to see your face Did you ever really need me did you ever really care? I give all that I had you were never there You called me crazy you called me unstable and try as I might i always seem to fail have you ever wanted what you can't have? Do you ever dream of one so sad? Like a child my heart jumps for you surrounded in memories I held onto Your voice is like a needle plunging in reminding me of the love, that is forbidden .....................J {before anyone asks no it's not about anyone}

Cut my flesh and peel away All that is within all the hate Pour out my soul release the flame My light burns, but only in vain No Limits for me that define All that was from time to time Here i drip life flowing down My blood forgets, as it falls out Inside my eyes tears that will never come finally it ends and there is release my life now begins as I cease.

I see a tear...running down your face A song in your head...amazing grace Feelings that haven't stirred for years As you embrace the love... lose fears You thought I stopped loving you Didn't think that i would see it through Never knew you were the world to me Now I hope through my eyes you'll see.. So please don't cry for me I'll be here where you can't see And don't forget me cause I'm gone Cause I'll still be here In this song You didn't know how i felt inside Watching all my fear come to life My heart stopped and so did time Then I realized The Blood... Was Mine. ...J copyright..2007 Justice Sherrick..

Do I grow old for you so fast? I realize now my time has passed a sparkle lost, forgotten in place concerned for me no more I am a thing of the past, a night which is not to remember words spoken now gone forever echoes of me, a shadow, a ripple pieces thrown, my heart crippled effect unknown, life as I am Sworn to be forgotten in the end ...J I am reaching for you in dreams finger tips touch soon release cannot have what you cannot hold always quiet, as Beauty unfolds wind blows through hair as from afar captures a moment pure at heart this image burned into my mind I long to drink your water fine giving life to me, still my mind hearts race towards the thought In your ocean of love, I bathe covered with drops of light outside I feel my hate start to slide My blackened heart begins to fade locked inside my body, this cage J

my skin is gone, an open space my bones collapse, lungs suffocate falling, broken, all from within pieces break, can't put right again my soul, my being, shattered glass my heart torn, the pieces trash Casted out, thrown to the side lost in emotion trying to hide nowhere to turn, dead ends arise feeling alone, I sit and cry yes a man, but a little boy inside ......J

Ok So Here it goes...why do people always claim to be what they are not?? I am tired of people saying things like Oh I am honest...I hate being lied to..Or the infamous we'll still be friends.. no we probably won't... I Try to be nice to everyone I like..I am not perfect hell No I am so far from it..I know I am fat..I know I am ugly..I know I have a small dick...but you know what I am pretty chill when it comes to everything..yet people who talked to you all the time all of a sudden just stop..now I am not even worth a hello..or a simple go fuck yourself..but hey what can you do? Apparently not much.. More to follow I never shut the f up.. J

Thanks to all who check out my page and send me notes or comments on my writing I appreciate it...LOL I am needy.. Plus it is nice to know people read that stuff... To any who care I am pleased to let everyone know Another one of my writings is getting published..Plus I got awarded an editors choice award and am getting on put on a limited edition poetry cd read by a professional reader..woo hoo..LOL