I feel like i'm a walking Zombie almost, i'm so upset about what i want to do, and so confused that i'm not myself, i'm definately not happy. I want to be with Kody, I really do and i do love him, i just know that he won't change and be more responsible, and we will fight about the same shit if we get back together, and i just want to let him move on. And I guess if he likes this girl, then i should be happy for him. Its just hard for me to imagine him with someone else, and its hard for me to be his friend, because I don't know how to be his friend, I just know how to be his girlfriend.