Akasha's blog: "Darkness"

My knees tremble I fall to the floor My eyes swell Tears shed. Fists fly I scream I cry. I turn my head Hear the footsteps Look up slowly And see you. You pick me up You wipe tears away. Your hold is captivating. I feel safe. I feel calm. My knees tremble I start to fall I feel your arms And I'm with you.

The thorns burn holes into my fingers As I pick up the rose you left me. As the blood comes, so do the tears. I don't know up from down. I don't know left from right. I want to be alone I need me time. I need to get away from all the thoughts The feelings I hide deep inside. All of the pain is shining through. I can't think, can't breathe. I can't do anything right now. The pain is going deeper, Just like the thorns. I can't feel anything anymore. I can't breathe when you try to shelter me From everything I try to do. The blood is lying in a pool around my feet. The thorns are penetrating into my soul. I can't look at you much longer, My eyes are growing weary. My breath is getting short. I'm falling into a pool of darkness. The darkness is pressing into me. You can't protect me from everything. Hell is gaping for you, The devil is waiting. You have one foot in already. The fire pent up in my heart Struggles to break free. The flames gather and flash about you. Only to be broken down again, For you are friends with the devil. I am dead to you. Just as you are dead to me.

I wish I could help you But you push me away. We're all so worried About what you may do. I wish you would talk But you close yourself off. We're all here for you But we're not enough. I wish you would go Get away from all this. You don't need the drama And neither do we. You push us away And we forgive, We push you away And you're gone.

I sit here wondering What is going on It's all to new Yet so familiar I'm comfortable Yet afraid It's a battle within This fight Will ne'er be won. You look into my eyes And I'm whole This world is right. And I'm lost Wondering again.

Nothing gets spoken Its all bottled inside I'm the rock The one you can lean on But where is mine? I need someone too. I learned from an early age Nothing is what it seems I lost everyone I loved So it doesn't come easy I push you away I pull you in I can't find my reason. I sometimes wish it was all gone Nothing more here Everything would be simpler Nothing would be done. I need to get away Theres to many memories That still cut deep And never scar. I wish you were here Holding me saying its ok I need you here But you're so far away.

They say that its all too soon That love doesn't truly exist But with you all that melts away I can't even explain how I feel. You seem to know what I'm thinking You seem to feel me. I've never felt this way The feeling of worth. I love the way you make me feel Yet I cant Wont Express how I feel. I'll lock it all away. So if you fight me for me You and I will always be.

I hear you're voice and I start to smile. I now know that everything is ok I can talk to you about anything But yet I don't I don't know how to tell you That I think I'm starting to fall for you. People say we hardly know each other But you can see right through me I love every minute of it I can see your face And my cheeks get red I lay my head down And all I dream Is you.

I look at the roses you left at my doorstep And I get sick to my stomach I look at your face And I want to hit it I feel the heat of your body next to mine And I want to push you away I feel the stank of your breath And I want to leave I look at the roses he left me And a smile comes across my face I look into his eyes And I feel safe I feel the heat of his body next to mine And I feel comforted I feel his soft breath on my neck And I feel more in love with him than ever.

I saw him through the dark mist just barely. For he was dressed in black. He was coming towards me like a black hole. His black hooded cape covered his face. He walked slowly, but with cause. Walking past me in the soft light Not talking Just walking Like the direction of my life. Cold and alone Everyone turns away He can't think no he won't. As he walked past me I get a cold chill I am deathly afraid of this man of the mist.

The first day I saw you I knew it had to be Love at first sight You are meant for me. I'm always thinking of you I hope your thinking too I don't know how to say this But I want to be with you. I'm showing you emotions That never ever show I guess the reason is That you deserve to know. Of everything thats said All of which is true Forever and a day My heart will be with you.