BRIANNA SINCLAIR DEFAUNT's blog: "Dark Death"

When you marry that special woman, and after 9 beautiful years you get a phone call with a message "I want a divorce" What do you say or do ?All of a sudden you're torn by pain , the pain that all you can remember is the memeries. Just then you realize you're now all alone just to discover you don't have no one to hold at night. How can a husband of 2 kids a boy and a girl on living ? When you're denied the privelage to see the kids you brought into this world for no arerant reason ,but you decide to keep on living. now you've entered the torn by pain stage. Someday you too will be torn by that same very pain that I'm feeling at this very moment. now you entered the torn by pain world with no one to call for help and no phone to get to All I can say is Jen wherever you are you've entered the zander zone!!! BORA, BORA you know you did me wrong by taking my heart from my chest and tearing it apart. now I'm torn by pain.

What is love ? is it just a feeling for that specical someone or is it just an emotion? My recent relationship only destroyed my life. I don't think that I can ever love the same person again. If that person was to ever say they were sorry and for me to give them another chance I don't think I'd be able to. and to admit it I'd probably be stupid and say ok. Or better yet I'd just have to say that I need some time to think about that for awhile. For the simple fact the person has a one sided love affair. Is'nt love susposed to work both ways As I sit at night thinking about the good times we had I only cry cause it hurts so much deep inside me, feelings will no longer be the same cause of the one sided love affair. If anyone ever reads this don't go out with a one sided love affairing person cause it will only kill you inside. Where is this person when you need them now? And at my deepest time of dispare. wHAT IS LOVE ? THAT'S THE QUUESTION YOU NEED TO ASK YOURSELF. Don't just go out with just anyone it hurts too damn much. AS I lay in bed I cry myself to sleep cause it hurts to much.

I must hide from myself from the world itself I can no longer take the world on by myself. I try to hide the pain but the pain is to great. please tell me that it's alright? no better yet, please take the knife and slice my throat, just let medie in peace caue the grave is calling my name as well.