Harley Quinn JLM's blog: "Damn it all.."

So, not sure how often I'm gonna be on here. Last Thursday my back went out on me and I was paralyzed in bed for two days. Made it to the ER on Saturday and spent the day there. It's my sciatica flaring up the worst it ever has. I'm on a bunch of pain meds and anti-inflammatories. I also have tendonitis and bursitis in my hips. Well, I was informed that I need an MRI done to see the extent of damage done to the discs in my back since one of them was nearly worn away (and that was back in 2002) so most likely it's completely gone now and I'm gonna have alot of pain issues. So, I'm told I'm probably gonna need back surgery soon. I'm guessing this year. I dont have medical insurance yet.. it starts in Feb. So then I'll go to the doc and find out what needs to be done.. but right now I'm in a huge amount of pain, can barely walk and have to do alot of crawling to get around. Right now my tylenol with codeine is starting to kick in and I'm getting drowsy.. soooo.. I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year since I am unable to make it out tonight, especially with the back problem. So, everyone have a great beginning to 2008!!!! You guys all kick ass! And I'll let you know how things progress.

Is anyone else irritated to high hell that all the holiday commercials assume that you're married or dating? Is there no commercials that cater to single people at all? An apparantly all women want is diamonds.. wtf? Are they serious? I swear I'm freakin' losing my mind! I even saw Mistletoe at Walmart tonight.. has anyone actually ever used mistletoe? Or had it used on them? I had never even seen real mistletoe until I saw these packages on the shelf. Ugh. I just needed to vent. Not been a spectacular few months, and now with the holidays rolling it just puts an even bigger spin on the situation. I cannot wait for this month to end (except for the few really cool movies that are gonna be coming out in the next couple of weeks).. I just wondered is anyone else irritated by the damn holiday commercials for things people really dont want or need, or for people who aren't really in those kind of situations? Right now.. all I can think of is one big BAH-HUMBUG! LOL.

Yeah.. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna quit this site and possibly myspace. I have no need of these sites anymore. I may just keep it up and every once in a while see if any friends have written, but I don't think I'll be out searching for new friends or competing in contests.. it'll be purely to stay in touch with friends. I won't be uploading any new photos (unless the fancy strikes me..) So, I hope you all are doing well.. and I'll talk to you in the future..

Sorry I haven't been on much lately.. there was getting to be too much weird stuff on here.. I was getting bombarded with people asking for NSFW pics of me (which means they didn't read my profile page at all..) and I was just tired of coming here. I need to focus more on my personal life.. I'll still stop by and say hello when I get a chance, but it will only be probably for a few minutes at a time.. unless I have a hankering to stay longer. I've made wonderful friends on here and it has nothing to do with any of you. I just need to do things in "reality" as opposed to sitting here all day.. so I'll stop by when I'm able, otherwise, don't think I just forgot about all of you.. cuz I haven't.. :)

I just wondered how many of my friends/fans etc. were thinking of quitting because of all the bullshit going on on the site now? Besides the comment bombing issues and rating too fast.. now the people going around and downrating photos. Honestly, I don't see why someone should rate someone low.. if you don't like the picture.. don't leave a rating! Makes a person feel more shitty if you leave a 1 than if you just left.. I really have thought lately about leaving.. I'm stil sticking around.. but if some of these things continue.. I really may reconsider my position on this site.. or just not visit as often. It's just more or less a bummer to get banned for leaving 2 comments in a 5 minute period (which happens to me often..) plus all the server time-out errors when I just get to a page and haven't even done anything yet... then to log on and see someone doesn't like a picture you post.. it's crazy. Where is the love people? Sheesh! I just had to rant... get it out of my system.

Eh.. just having one of them night... CT has been extremely boring lately.. unless it's just MY page that's boring! LOL.. Just wondered if anyone actually reads these things or are they just kinda lingering around in the space that is the internet.... Stop by.. say hi if anyone is alive.. seriously.. hella hell bored! I'm gonna go watch a movie

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So, I just wonder, what gives a person the right to think they can go up and touch a complete stranger? Honestly? And is there some kind of harassment bug going around that is taking over the bars? Yeah.. I just need to vent.. I'm tired of going out and having someone harass with either words or come up and start massing my shoulders when I've never even met them.. I don't think I should have to change my behavior just because I'm in a bar! I'm there to hang with my friends and do my thing... not to have strangers or people who I don't enjoy or feel comfortable being around bother me. And that said, no I've never been an outspoken person.. I really don't like to have to tell someone to back off or to say Don't Touch Me! But, I'm gonna have to learn apparantly! Yup.. just needing to let of some steam.. and I need to get me a bodyguard.. :)