The date is set. The church is reserved. The dress is bought. The groom is ready.
But the bride is a nervous wreck. I'm in full on panic mode here people, and I don't know why. I'm sure this is what I want to do but I'm just nervous about the whole frills of the matter. What if something goes wrong? What if I trip and fall flat on my face? Gasp, what if i step on my dress walking down the isle and it rips? I don't think I should be thinking about this. Another thing is that I have no one to give me away or walk me down the isle. I went by my mom's place to invite her as a show of good faith and she called me a souless slut whore. Whatever, she hasn't changed a bit and now I know why my father left when he did. Everything my mother told me about him was a lie, including who he was. She told me he was a dead beat dad who was hooked on drugs and porn. I recently found out that the man my mother claimed was my father was just her long time live in boyfriend. my real father was in the Army and left when I was 6. I always wondered where mom got got her beer money, now I know it was from the child support checks my dad sent her. She's the souless slut whore, not me.
I want to know who my dad is. I want to meet him and get to know him. I would love for him to come to my wedding but how in the world am I supposed to find him? Besides I don't know what my mother has told him about me, what if he doesn't want to have anything to do with me? Lara and Nena I need life and marital advice.
HELP
