SacridDreamz's blog: "Dad or lack there of?"

i debated on making this a mum or not and actualy im not in the mood for the negative mummers soooo ill jus make this blog. if you decide to post a comment id love to see it alright this is about my dad starting from day one he denied me from the get go wanted a blood test blazay blah yeah sorry ur a lucky winner of me im yours. from there was empty promises had me up and waiting for special trips to the park,pool etc and he never showed up. i got older id see him on the streets id stop say hi hed buy me a pop or chips never nothing more mind u my dad is in hmmmm manufacturing and distributing so he had money..i was always the one to call him,hunt him down litteraly. when my older sis was fed up n said F*** him i beged her to forgive him hes our dad so nooooow. im an adult i gave up didnt speak to my dad or even know where he lived for over 10 years... i have 5 possibly 6 sisters all by him 2 brothers i never met my brothers let alone even see a picture but i knew my sisters their mom moved them away when they were babies been over 10 years since i seen my sisters . out of the blue one sis finds me wich leads to the rest of my sisters and a phone call to my dad. im still in contact with my sisters and establishing a relationship with them tht im grateful for. as far as my dad tht one phone call was months ago since then my dad has called me several times i never answered never called back. inside im screaming HA how does it feel. i feel the only reason he is attempting now is cuz he realizes he was a dead beat dad never payed child support on all of us and tht fact hes not gettin and younger and his hearts not as strong as it was. but i cant ok ill say it i cant bring my self down enough to estblish a relationship with him cmon im 28 now and when i talked to him he didnt mention anything like sorry i never attempted to find you or wasnt a dad to u . he just started conversating like we never lost contact he said i love u i said ok i didnt call him dad..... i dont want to jus forgive and forget thts 28 yrs of pain broken hearts. my dad was in the hospital a month ago for his heart i didnt think omg hes dying i thought oh hmm when i finnaly have kids they will never have a grandpa. a close friend pissed me off when she said i was just acting childish and cold hearted um ok how am i supposed to feel ina situation like this????

ok like the topic says what the fuck is wrong with Some parents these days.... i see absolutely nothing wrong with a baby/toddler/child wearing the cutsey pink and blue onesies and baby outfits thats what they are made for cute lil babies and todler and young kids. dora hell even barney its what kids like.i about died the other day when i seen a little girl not even 5 wearing knee high boots with little heels a tiny little mini jean skirt and a bikini type shirt with fringe hanging down. curls in her hair and she even had makeup on holding her moms hand who was wearing what looked like the 5yo's clothes if not smaller and they were holding matching purses its not like it was a special occasion cuz everytime i see them they are both dressed the same. another time i seen them in walmart mom and daughter had on little tracksuits the mom had a sprts bra type thing on hers boobs all hanging out and the little gurl had a little white lace kiddie bra on and both had their jackets unzipped to their belly buttons... so anyways the reason this comes to mind is i was reading a poll about some lady making a new line of clothes for HIP babies and children G W Bush is a poopyhead,led zeplin,beatles,pink floyd etc onesies and tshirts ok parents those are your favorite ppl not your innocent child whos never seen or probobly heard those ppl.. she also plans to make matching hand bags and matching outfits for mom and dad cmon ppl they are your children not your own personal mini me blahhhh.. this is one of the polls they have open Are parents trying to turn their kids into Mini-Me's? * 6577 responses Yes, parents should stop pushing their style on their kids and just let them be kids -- Barney and all. 78% No, parents just want their kids to be hip and to fit in with today's trends. 22% Course i voted for yes let them innocent kids be just that kids!!!!!your 2yo doesnt care if they fit into todays trends or not they just know their favorite CHild show icon whatever is on their clothes THAT makes them happy wheew ok im done *courtseys* lol

you know i was thinking i give props to all single daddies out there its weird theres more and more popping up and i give yall so much credit.. now can one of u hunt my dead beat dad down and tell him he has a daughter out there cmon its only been like 11 yrs since ive seen him smh

Men and their dangerous weapons How can a grown man produce a beautiful baby then pretend she doesnt exist? not just one but twelve that i know of. Its sad actualy when i was younger i seen my dad all the time all around town running his business umm hmm manufacturing and distributing?? when i ran into him on the street hed say hi mija want a pop and hed hand me a dollar? BUT he did hug me maybe its just me that empty hug means nothing when you never heard your dad tell you he loves you or even thinks about you. hed introduce me to his friends as his little girl they would go on and on about how beautiful i was and my dad just smiled and talked in spanish wich i dont know...prolly said yeah shes another one of my fuck ups?? mistakes??my soon to be new drug runner?? i dont know but its hard to think nice things when i dont have a single happy memory of my dad i dont get sad im not missing anything hell i dont know what id be missing never having a dad in my life my mom did her best ima healthy strong woman never went without anything shes my mom and my dad put in one and loves me just as much.Mom was there for me when i was molested she went after him NOt my dad.i cried on moms shoulder when my friends were dying family members passed Not his..she was there for me when i joined a gang started all the drugs became sex crazed she turned my life around Not my dad. Mom helped me overcome a seriously abusive relationship MOM is my hero NOT you dad!! i wonder if my dad ever thinks about me wonders how i am or if i have a family of my own? i've never called him dad to his face or on the phone never told him i loved him or missed him. if he died tomorrow im pretty sure id cry. id cry because i never heard those words Angelica i love you your beautiful i did a good job Nada. when im finnaly blessed with kids i swear to god i hope i made the right choice in my booboo and hes the dad i never got to have. he doesnt have a man to call dad either he calls him by his first name. maybe two wrongs will make a right? . my man doesnt even have a single baby picture of himself or a picture with his dad i think thats beyond sad.. i want atleast one picture of my child and my dad so my child will have some memories and i can use it as a learning experience son/daughter this is what you never want to be a dead beat heartless sperm doner that caused alot of mental issues with your mommy when she grew up and realized it shouldnt be her job to hunt her dad down every few years in hopes to hear those damn words...ugh yes im mad the older i get i cant help but blame myself what did i do what can i do? why dont you love me why dont you want me why dont you fucking care about who i've become? well guess what DAD I AM A beautiful, healthy, educated, well loved strong hearted, honest, faithful, drug free, open minded, free spirited, determined REAL woman, Daughter of my Mother, Sister, Tia to my nephew and girlfriend soon to be wife to the best thing that has ever happened in my life A REAL MAN!! the one thing my heart lacked A void you could never fill.. and after all thats said i can honestly say im over it. thank you for donating to my mother a beautiful baby girl Me!