mzfreak88's blog: "connections"

me and ma b/f jus broke up and usually im tha one that goes and makes up i cant do that this time im tired of always having to do it, he gets mad over nothing then im tha one that has to put all tha pieces back together i really like him and i think about him alot but im trying to be strong and not call him or txt him. i changed not for him but for tha relationship. its really hard...............and i dont really have anyone to talk to cuz ma family doesnt care about anyone but themselves. i jus wish i cud be happy....

ok so i need a husband lol taking applications get at me....

so yea i have no one to really talk to about this because honestly no one cares....im really stressed out right now im 19 and tryin to do something with my life. i decided to go to school for massage therapy. even though i had a car it was messed up so when i moved 3 hours from home to nashville tn i didnt take a car with me. my school was about 3 and a half miles from ma apartment. so every morning rain or shine i got up 7 left at 8 walked to school and got there by 8:30 9. since i didnt have class until 11 i usually studied or looked for a job. i was in class every day. and ma grades were good. i couldnt afford ma apartment and had no one to help me ma parents cudnt afford it and i didnt qualify for any government assistance. even though i didnt have any money. oh but wait if i get knocked up they wud pay for everything. anyways so even tho i watched ppl whose parents paid for everything skip class and fail and jus not care im tha one that had to come home. so now ma biggest problem is i have any support. i really need emotional support at least and ma mom jus says im not dedicated to school and since i was interested in doing hair i shud do this she doesnt agree with anything i do my stepmom stepdad and real dad jus dont say anything. i dont kno im jus really tired and trying to make a way for ma self is so hard.......