you know I have now decided I want more out of my life then I get. I want a man to love me and my kids. I want my kids to be happy. I think I want my husband to grow up and know that he has a family that needs him. Then i want my fuck friend to decide if he wants more then a fuck casue i do i want to be happy I want to grow old with someone and i want this now I don't want to wait till I am 90 to get this..I just want my life back and is it so hard to ask for love..I mean I know that love is a strong word but I know that i need it and want it in my life..GOD what is wrong with me