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[this doesn't partain to anyone, or anything, really. I just felt like some poetic/colorful writing..and this is what came out. I can see how some of this story reflects where I am currently in life-but has no bearing on my actions, just my feelings. Let me know what you think]
...In the darkness of my room, I hold my head in my shaking hands. I have worn my heart on my sleeve, time and time again; no matter how hard I try, it bleeds for love for you...it yearns for something new and exciting which I cannot seem to fathom or find. I have no recolection of the person I used to be...I have turned to this...Who am I? I cannot be found here on this earth, but in a world of hurt and confusion, with an unyeilding presence of something unfortunate which I can't explain. What led me to this dismal place? Can I excape? I only wish to feel that upward turn in my quivering lips; a smile.
The constant strain of heartache, while the lies pour forth, surmounts to more than my heavy heart can take at this time and place. And, I feel this single tear roll down my cheek and realize that it takes the place of a memory I once held of you within my being...a memory of you excaping from who I am.
I feel dead to you now...like an unwanted dream. Your guard has finally prevailed and here, alone, I sit wondering where life is to take me. I do not know where I will end up; I will traverse new lands, and perhaps find a place where I will rekindle who I once was; back when I was happy.
I will tear down the blackened curtains...encompassing who i am now...unleashing the person I will be come in time. My life will no longer be dark and dreary, but colorful and adventurous-leading me to new heights. It will be here that I find myself...and I will find myself happy-In this new land I come upon. For there, I will be welcomed not at face value, but as a unique component to the happiness in the lives of others.
