Why is it that no matter who it is we trust...Family, friends, our lover....That it seems inevitable that we get hurt, torn, abused, neglected, ignored....It pains me so to even begin to care for someone....Never in my life has it been easy to give someone my heart....Sadly no matter how hard I try to fight caring I give in eventually!!...Slipping into the routine that has been lain by so many before....Me here loving and caring and them there so cold and callous...Well this has got to stop....I beg those who are close to me to forgive the distance I have been putting between us...I am just sick of being the one who seems to get sucked in and pulled down and I don't want that anymore....If you have hurt me then you know more than anyone else I will tell you that I'm hurting...If not then please do not worry....Just give me time to sort out the crazy thoughts and feelings inside....
Time unravels like a kitten playing with a ball of yarn. Waiting for you has become an obsession now. Listening for your footsteps; hoping for the sound of your voice...
Waiting seems like forever but time is moving ever so rapidly. Do you still think of me; do you sit and ponder on what could have been. I know I do...
Reaching deep inside to do the simplest of things; I must force myself to eat. Sleeping only when staying awake is no longer possible and then waking at the slightest of sounds...
What will it take for my world to right itself once more; or is it even possible. You seem to take all of this with such ease while inside I am slowly dying...
It is only a matter of time before I give up the fight altogether. Knowing that when I do you'll be able to move on without a thought. So here I sit; and here I wait...
Until the end...
Never take a single moment for granted...
Speak up and be heard...
Make each day worth waking...
No one ever promised...
That life would be easy to live...
The only promise we have received...
Is that in the end its worth it!!!
Reaching to the heavens with a breath of final hope...
I turn to pray for answers as my dreams go up in smoke...
Love promises forever and ever more...
Though now I lay here bleeding; upon your kitchen floor...
Didn't you even stop to think about how I would hurt...
When you came walking in with her and in my face kicked dirt...
So now you have to deal with me; no longer can you pretend...
For in your eyes I take my life; with you I meet my end...
Now tears fill your eyes as you begin to see...
The lover you gave so much grief; now see the invisible me.....
Fallen from the grace of heaven... I have given all for you my love... Opening myself to mortality and pain...
Sadly, you left me standing... alone, afraid, and cold... for you I gave it all...
Now to walk this world of hope... without any for my own... you turn away for her to hold... don't know how much I can take...
I pray each day for forgiveness... to return to the life I knew... but still I remain broken...
Here crying over you..........
Touching your photograph; tears falling from my red and swollen eyes.
Those words ringing in my ears; "I love you and I'll never leave you!"
Where are you now my love; where have you gone..
Why have you forsaken me for another..
Is she everything you dreamed about...
Can she keep you warm at night..
Will she be there for you when you need her...
Is she holding you tight...
My stomach churns; my vision blurs; at the thought of another in your arms...
I feel as if I'm breaking down...
Falling completely apart...
You are my soul; my heart; my dream; without you I'm not me....
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