Hellionvoice08's blog: "Changes."

I have been singel now for 4 years. I have had a few dates. But none of them have lasted long. I am trying to see if it's me or not. I am having roommmate issues. I am feeling that this is the issues that are causing me not to have any luck in dating. I don't go for the men she does, this is my way. And up till now she's been going fpr the younger men. Well I got the I am 40 b.s. thing. Meaning that she is no longer going for the younger men. I am like well this is great. I am by no means loose, but I have had fun. I know for a fact that there are two types of men. Ones wanting just sex, and those that are in a relasionhip. I am feeling like the men from the east coast are nothing more than players. And she has a lot to do with my lace of dates. I just don't bring them home. She is so judgemental, and thinks every man is a jerk. I see not all men are this way.

Now here is the messy part of it all. I have no time to myself, I have to clean all of the place, dishes, ect. I do not come out to the livingroom, I don't use a lot of the dis

I am not having someone looking over my sholder, and I know this has been a rough work week for me. Long hours and very little sleep, not helping. I am getting snippy. I am also not happy right now. I was seeing someone fir close to 5 months. I was having issues with my kid's dad, and the guy stops dating me. He wounders why I am not calling, texting or emailing as much. And has the guts to wine about this. I wasn;t the one to stop everthing, he was and I have to take you back. I don't think so. I don't care how good sex is, not going to happen. So now my delima. Do I just scew him, and think of it that way or do I just stop all together? I'll find my answer soon.

Don't get me wrong, I love my new job. but why are there people in this world who want you to do things their way, and force you into a mold. I am not someone who like this, I am not here for you to tell me what to do and say. I am myself, and have been threw more junk than you will ever know. I don't let others tell me how to live my life. I live it my way, and try to treat other's the way I want to be treated. So I am going to have to stop coming onto Fubar durning this person's work week, I only have to deal with them for two days. and trust me I have had worse, my old job was worse than this.

I don't mind being asked questions, but I shouldn't have to say if I am with someone or not. It's none of your business. I am on here to have fun and chill while I am at work. I can't talk much, or chat, or even post comment. All I can do is see what is happening in the Fubar world. I don't have the inter net at home, so I play catch up at work. And not every person can have internet in their homes. If I don't answer it because I can't. I would like to keep my job thankyou.

It's one of those days where it's not bad nor is it good. Just in between. I don't get them to offten, but they happen. I am also in an in between mood as well. Not overly mad or happy, but not blaw either. Just a mellow mood, which is a good thing. It means that I am not overly stressed. and in the past that has gotten me no where. This is all I am going to say for now, Later Voice.

I have had a lot of ups and downs these past years. I have had to deal with a divorce, no job, then have a job, no life with this job, dating, drama with babies daddy. and now a new job and a better life. Not much else to say. but thanks to god for getting me this job.