Deacon Songs's blog: "changes"

things have been uprooted in my life.... aside from the obvious. some days i feel like a fool and some days i feel lucky. im trying really hard to maintain and im doing ok but ill feel better when i get home. i didnt come to vegas on vacation. I lived here for 4 years and when i left it was because i fucked up and hit rock bottom in 2005. i had a drug problem and was arrested for possession of a controlled substance with intent to sell. I was extradited from louisiana to las vegas and have been in jail since october. the person i was when i lived here in vegas is dead, i buried him a long time ago. but since i went to louisiana as a fugitive its possible i have to stay here in las vegas, ill find out tuesday. im ashamed of who i was back then for a few years and this blog will help me continue on, a confession of sorts. i consider some of you on fubar friends and alot of you are just really great people whom id like to know better. right now i could use some prayers and for those of you who dont believe in prayer put me in your thoughts to make it home to my kids and job. if i have to stay in vegas until my probation is complete it could take up to 3 years. that would screw everything ive worked so hard for in the last 4 years and its my own fault. thanks if you read this and havent judged me for something i did that seems like a life time ago!