Trebor's blog: "Chambers of my soul"

This is the place where I sit This is the part where I love you too much Is this as hard as it gets? 'Cause I'm getting tired Of pretending I'm tough I'm here if you want me I'm yours, you can hold me I'm empty and taken and Tumbling and breakin' 'Cause you don't see me And you don't need me And you don't love me The way I wish you would The way I know you could I dream of worlds Where you'd understand And I dream a Million sleepless nights I dream of fire when You're touching my hand But it twists into smoke When I turn on the light I'm speechless and faded It's too complicated Is this how the book ends, Nothing but good friends? 'Cause you don't see me And you don't need me And you don't love me The way I wish you would This is the place in my heart This is the place where I'm falling apart Isn't this just where we met? And is this the last chance That I'll ever get? I wish I was lonely Instead of just only Crystal and see-through And not enough to you 'Cause you don't see me And you don't need me And you don't love me The way I wish you would 'Cause you don't see me And you don't need me And you don't love me The way I wish you would The way I know you could suicide claims over 30,000 lives a year...it is the eighth leading cause of death in men... it is the third leading cause of death in teens.. Please see your friends and family,know whats going on with them,before it is too late...

Walking in the cloudiness as i have for so long, I became numb and pale Noone could see me if i wanted to hide, the darkness i mastered,in darkness i survived With out care or hope i wandered about. Then one night something happened unexplained for up in the distance a light did shine. Curious i did not hide,it was not a latern,it must be something devine. I walked and I searched looking around, there i found you and realized i was crawling around. Your presence around me you lifted me up, a mystery was upon me,who was this filling my cup? Iasked what you were pouring and would it make me sick Without your lips moving you told me it was Hope. I looked at you with such disarray,for beauty abounds you as you save me this day. I noticed about me the clouds had parted, from you they ran,you stayed right above me with your sheltering hand. You spoke of hope through sorrow and pain, you lifted my spirit and hope i did gain. Moonlight & Mystery such a beautiful thing, no confusion,no,not even a game. Some devine light to see me through... Moonlight & Mystery...I Thank You.

I lay my head in the ashes of yesterday, staring deeply into the moonlight. So full of mystery to what tomorrow brings, in the distance memories ring. I wonder if the leap i took, was worth the pain and suffering that i have endured. I gave up forever,my wings now clipped for you to scar me with loves harsh whip. The beating endured,the punishment daily,the blood still fresh in the dungeon the humility is humbling,the confusion crisp the sad truth of knowledge that i still exsist. My character stronger,my will unbent the scars will remind me of loves unfortunate event. they may bleed a little from time to time, but my head held high i will survive. You may have hurt me but dead i am not, in the end it was worth it... fallen? I think not.