i JUST NEED TO VENT A LITTLE BIT...SORRY IF IT SEEMS LIKE I AM WHINING BUT I AM NOT....I AM VERY SCARED. I HAVE HAD BACK PROBLEMS SINCE I WAS ABOUT 20 YEARS OLD. HOWEVER, I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO DO CERTAIN THINGS TO HELP. TREAMENT, THERAPY AND EXERCISE. AS THE YEARS HAVE PROGRESSED AND I HAVE GOTTEN OLDER MY BACK HAS GOTTEN WORSE.
I FOUND OUT WEDNESDAY THAT I NEED TO HAVE BACK SURGERY. ONE OF THE DISC'S IN MY LOWER BACK HAS TOTALLY COLLAPSED AND I HAVE TO HAVE TO BONES FUSED TOGETHER BECAUSE MY ENTIRE PELVIC AND HIP AREA IS SLIPPING FOWARD, AND IF I DO NOT HAVE THE SURGERY I COULD BECOME PARALYZED.
IN ADDITION TO THAT WONDERFULO NEWS (LOL) I AM A SINGLE MOM WITH NO FAMILY AROUND AND NO SIGNIFICANT OTHER. MY SPIRIT IS FAILING ME NOW AND I DON'T HAVE THE WILL TO DO ANYTHING. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO SEE IF THERE IS ANY HELP OUT THERE, FOR SOMEONE IN MY SITUATION BECAUSE I COULD BE OUT OF COMMISSION FOR UP TO 3 MONTHS IF NOT MORE.
SO I AM FEELING SICK ALL THE TIME JUST THINKING ABOUT EVERYTHNG THAT IS GOING ON PHYSICALLY AND WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN FINANCIALLY AND HOW AM I GOING TO TAKE CARE OF MY 7 YEAR OLF????
I TRY TO BELIEVE THAT THE UNIVERSE IS IN CONTROL AND EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, BUT MY ABILITY TO BELIEVE AND HAVE STRENGTH IS SLOWLY SLIPPING AWAY FROM ME.
IF ANY OF MY FRIENDS OR ANYONE ELSE READS THIS PLEASE PUT OUT SOME POSITIVE ENERGY MY WAY....MY SPIRIT REALLY NEEDS IT.
THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ THIS, AND IF YOU HAVE....TONS OF HUGS TO YOU.
TRACY
