Ok so I got some not ok news from my DR today, and I just had the pap
a week ago GRRRR. As some of you know in August I had a PAP and then
had to have a biopsy, my DR back in San Diego had found that I had
Cancerous and precancerous cells but said DONT WORRY it doesnt grow
fast you should be fine. Well I put off seeing a DR and put it off
cuz IM SCARED to death of leaving my children behind without me to be
here for them. I dont like DRs ever since I lost my mom when I was
14. And My oldest just turned 15 and my daughter will be 14 in
April. The same Age my brother and I where when we lost my mom.
Anyways I went into the DR here in Redding and told them what all I
had been through, explained the symptoms I am having, stich pains in
my cervix, irregular periods and other lil things going on. Well the
Dr here said that if my DR in San Diego thought it was cancer he
should have done something, well yeah he should have but I moved to
Redding right when he got the results so he couldnt, take in mind it
had been 7yrs since my last PAP due to my fear of DRs. Any how she
wasnt concerned said EVERYTHIGN appeared to look NORMAL.
WEll today at 5pm on my way to the race track, she calls, I have to
go back in to have ANOTHER BIOPSY of my cervix, she is very concerned
and the pains on my cervix might indicate that cancer is in the
uterus. GRRRRR here I go again crying about cancer and scared to
death. I swear I just went through all this in August. Shan
remembers and has tracked me since then LOL
So Im supposed to go in as soon as they can fit me in for a Conopscy
again, Cancer runs so strong in my family. So I will keep you all
updated but IM FREAKING out.
Ontop of all this my daughter who had hip surgery in May 2006 is
having problems. They are going to put her into physical therapy and
ultrasound therapy if this does not help then she has to go back in
for surgery. So IM STRESSED OUT to the max with all this on my
shoulders.
I will get through this and survive!!!!