Well it that time of year again, that I dread. I have almost the same feeling about valentine's day as I did last year.
It was a mascare, that's what it represents. Last year, made it worse. My Dad passed and that was the day he was buried.
Its like a bloody reminder now. Not only that I'm alone, but someone I deeply loved is gone, along with some other friends I deeply miss.
I'm trying not to be saddened but its twice as bad when your alone. and the loneliness gets to you, eats you alive. Somedays, I wish I was buried in a grave, under a cold slab.
Seems like every holiday or season its always the same, no matter the changes I make in my life. History just repeating itself.
Sorry to bore whoever reads this, but its the truth. If there is anyone out there for me please send them in my direction soon.
thanks for listening.
