bring back the fall.
i dont want to get better, maybe id rather watch everyone around me grow, form and manipulate into everything I wish I could be as I have for years... maybe id rather feel neglected and alone maybe id rather sit in the cold alone drinking wine without you. its not that i miss you, its not that i need you, its that I have no one else, its because im alone and no one else made me feel any closer to whole that you do. fall never looked so beautiful as it did that day, i could look at you and you would smile. i could hold your hand and you would look at me and say I was like no one else, we could find pleassure in the simplest form of nothing more than a flower, yes i still remember the full moon. i still remember going on my toes to kiss you while my body tried to pull me away. i still remember leaving my safe place to be with you. i still remember his tears when i told him i had fallen for someone else. i remember my tears when i would fight for you. fall is at its end, and the beauty is gone, a gust of cold wind is all i have now, the flowers dont blossom anymore, you dont smile anymore...your not there anymore, and your words have become short sitting at the tip of your tongue. the moon isnt so bright anymore, the ducks and fish really dont catch my attention any longer...the woods really dont speak for me any longer. i could push, i could fight but whats the point your oxygen and now its tightening my lungs. your walking away and your taking parts of me with you. loving another soul has taken its tole, loving words havent been in company...loving you has become a job not a pleassure, loving me has become the impossible. those fall days really dont fade for me, i could live in them just to remember that i was once your smile, that you once took my hand, you were once happy with me ,you once thought of me...that you once...possibly...loved me.... please bring back the fall.
