Kat's blog: "break ups"

We’ve all been through it, you meet that one person, the one you would never in a million years think would be “ the one “. then it happens, days go by, you feel a spark, weeks go by, you cant get them off your mind, months go by, and your in love. A year passes and you could never imagine even thinking about someone else, they’re all you want. And we’ve all heard the expression, “ nothing last forever” well that moment comes, and your crushed, you find yourself crying, not sleeping, barely eating, not wanting to go out, you cant even hear a slow song without wanting to cry. Its not easy holding the tears back, its almost impossible, what do you do when the one person you know everything about, and when I say everything, I mean everything, you can smell their scent from blocks away, you hear their voice and you don’t think twice that its them, you spot their car from houses away, you learn their life, their schedule, the way they live, the way they do things, you’ve become like them, your day to day routine changes slightly because your so used to theirs. Everyone knows you as part of them.  you know what their going to say before it is said. Basically your life has become theirs. How do you just up and forget all that, and move on. You get to a point where you don’t know what move to make next, do you sit here and think about them, and dwell on the fact that they are no longer here, or do you pick up the pieces of yourself, and slowly move on? It’s not easy, its almost impossible, you begin to hear “ your song “ on the radio more and more, everything makes you think of them, how in the hell can you just act like everything’s okay? You know its not okay, its no where near okay, you feel horrible and its hard to even fake a slight smile. We have all had to deal with this, this heartbreak is so much more than we could have ever imagined. Well this is to all of us, who were just left to put ourselves back together,  Its not easy, it hurts like hell, sometimes you think you just wanna pack up and leave and never have to be back here having to deal with this, but it will only make you stronger, being broken and becoming fixed again, it streghthens the heart, it teaches us not to fall so easily, not to trust so easily. You might think its killing you, but really its making you more alive, maybe not right now, but in time you’ll be better than ever. This is for us, the people who have been moved on from and not cared about the way we should have been. don’t ever let anyone break you, if they don’t care enough to do something like this to you, they are not worth it. I just wanted to post this, to show everyone that’s going through rough times, that its not just you, right now I feel at my lowest, the lowest I could possibly feel, but I have to be strong, and think positive, as hard as it is, trust me, I know, I'm trying not to cry while writing this. But I just want to be one of these people who don’t show their voice, and don’t speak up, this is just my way of letting out my feelings before I explode, and letting you all know that maybe everything does happen for a reason, and life is precious, and we cant waste it being crushed over someone who doesn’t give us what we need. <3 If you ever felt this way go a head and let your voice be heard!