AnJ Marie's blog: "BoRed!"

So last time i wrote i explain my 'ray situation' well.. that was in september.. and here it is middle of Jan, and were still "just friends" Its more deep tho.. im falling for him O to hard! & we've talkedd about maybe one day there being a "us" but the convo backfired. He told me he still was messed up from his ex, which i alredy knew && then in the end we cut off all sex. Well, a month later we broke that!! && i ended up staying the night with him.. ha. Yeah, so im falling in love with Ray..&& bookie you ask.. hes still in my heart, but i never could actually see us being together. Hes not who ii thought he was. But he is forever going to be one of my besties.. and i <3 him always. Rays just different from all these other guys ive chased. He's grown up.. he knows what hes looking for in life, and hes goin for it. I admire him because hes still a little kidd at heart but he can be so grown up and live his life. Theres so many things that guyy has help me with, and he doesnt even know it. On another note! I got my nipples pierced for my birthday.. Jan. 5th.. Yepp im 20 :). I love them. Ray gave me the idear cuz he has his done.. but i unno, i always LOVED nipple rings.. and so me and my sister spent 50bucks a piece to get ours did. There amazing. && ive already tried them out, hahahahaa. Workk is ok. It sucks sumdays and otherrs i just love it. What more could i ask for. The people i work with are like family.. and the kids are my life. I think thats all for now.

SoOo its been awhile. Lets update. I've been talking to this guy Ray for a while now. Were just friends tho, but also a lil bit more we just havent came out and put it into words!! We just recently had sex && gosh ii want so much more. But of course my life is very complicated && he's still in love with his ex girlfriend, so for now were just good friends.. i hope to talk to him more about 'us' sumtime soon, ii just needa get it together.. Because along with him love'n his ex.. ii have the same prollem. I still love bookie! Last night me and bookie messed around. && he has a girlfriend.. Weird! I never thought id b the 'home wrecker' but at the same time ii love him so much ii cant help but let him do the things he does to me! GrRr-ness. Im so screwed up. & if it actually came down to choose'n bookie or ray ii wouldnt kno who to choose. For one, ii dated bookie before && it turned out bad.. and For Two, ii heared Ray wasnt a very faithful guy.. soOo what do ii do?? AnJ Marie

SoOo me & brian didnt really work out.. i mean, he still likes me & is tryna talk to me, but this time im backin up. Im just not feelin him like ii thought i was. One, becuz ii still want bookie && hes in my heart.. && two, is just cuz hes not growin up.. and ii want my man to b grown up && done with all the childish bullshit.. ya kno?!? Ne ways.. so i met a new guy named ray.. and ii like him a lot but we havent really hung out but once, so im hope'n more comes out of it.. we'll see && i def will try to update bout it sumtime.. AnGeL

Uhhhh!! im such a loser. ii recently started talking to this guy named Brian.. && i like him A LOT.. but it's just.. weird. We have been friends for a while, he used to date one of muh bestfriends, friend.. but we been talkin for a minute now && havent got to hang out yet.. our schedules just clash!! It sucks! && then like, he's always talkin to other females too.. and its not like ii can b mad about it or ne thing cuz we arent 'together' but it kinda makes me upset becuz when im talkin to sum1 'deep' its like all ii wanna talk to is them and it is never tha same for guys.. fuckin sucks. ii just want one guy to make me there everything && make me smile && just b almost perfect. ii dont care if there SEXI, altho it is a plus.. ii just want sum1 to treat me how i women should b treated. Dont get me wrong, Brian is a sweetheart.. ii just dont kno if he's it.. and guess ii wont for a while since im tryin to take things slow. I still wish bookie would come around, but ii cant wait forever.. ii have to do what i gotta!! && then if he decides to come back to me ill have to not run straight to him.. there WILL b lots of talking goin on!! Thats fa'sho.. But back to Bri, i wish ii could just talk to him.. i get so speechless when we are on tha phone, i dont wanna sound like an idiot.. but i am, lol.. im just a big silly girl && cant help it. But ii guess if he cant accept me for who i am then its whatever right?!?!?! Ne ways thats it for now.. love ya guys. AnJ Marie

Let me tell ya'll!! *haha* ii have been party'n all week && its just now friday. I am goin out tonight too.. but ii think ii need this even tho kickin it with katie soOo much is making me not like her as much. Dont get me wrong, she is one of muh bestfriends.. but when she starts hangin wit people's she like changes for tha person she's around.. and ii straight up hate that shiit!! It's like 'ur 20 yrs old.. and cant even figure out who u are' lol.. its annoyin!!! Ne ways.. been partyin wit muh new friends Alyssa.. && she's awesome!! LoL.. and then Silva which is muh girl.. she's a lesbian && for sum reason when ii get drunk ii kiss her, even tho im straight. HAHA, ii just cant help it.. ii love tha dick, but she can kiss.. and she knos im straight soOo it's all good. Umm, kate likes silva.. but i dont think silva likes her like that.. && basically thats what has become annoyin from kate, she focuses on silva and trys her damness to get in her pants.. and silva aint on it. But, whatever.. LRL, when we get drunk && party we all have fun and thats all tha really matters, right?! Ne ways.. im out before ii start bringin up bookie marie.. haha AnJ

It always seems like, even if ii do have a boyfriend.. i never do anything on valentines day or have sum1 to actually spend it with. When me & daniel was together he would always tell me he forgot & made other plans, and altho he did buy me stuff or whatever it just never compared to how happy ii would have felt to just spend time with him.. yakno?! Ne ways.. enough of that, ii havent been up to much latly.. just hangin out. Went shoppin wit gayle yesterday @ belden mall.. we had sum fun.. she's just a REALLY cheap shopper for sum1 who had 700hun just for clothes.. but thats whatever,lol.. i would have had almost everything ii wanted wit that && she's worried about things bein TOO expensive.. lrl. She said that 20dollar jeans was too expensive.. who does that?! Thats a freakin sale for me!! *LOL* Usually muh jeans are about 24 - 29 bucks.. soOo ii woulda been happy to see sum cute jeans for 20bucks!! lOl.. but u cant tell her that! Umm.. what else?? havent hung out wit katie much becuz she is sick, but hopefully we'll do sumthin soon. BoOokie Maries bday is friday ::sad face:: and ii guess he's havin a party, but he sure aint invite me of course.. but why would he?! He just used me like tha rest tha guys, ii just have to get used to it and quit denyin it thinking he really cared or sumthing. I have to baby sit saturday up in Alliance, only for a few hrs i think, ii really need tha money so hopefully tha snow goes away so they dont cancel on me and hopefully they pay me at lease 30..ill be a happy girl ;).. ne ways im out for now!! AnJ Marie

Awe..man things just been crazii for me.. ever since well, New Years.. or maybe a couple days before. Well BoOokie Marie aka Jake got a girlfriend, so its been called quits for us.. which sucks!!! I mean, ii guess ii just wasnt expecting for him to go out && find sum1 other then me.. i dont kno. But so i been upset latly.. but im tryin not to let it get to me but then ii get on tha puter today && his away message said he was shoppin at tha store and then at tha bottom it said "i love emme" it just pissed me off, cuz he knoooooos i have feelings soOo deep..&& it just err, ii cant belive it. He dont love her!! He cant!! They only been together 2weeks at tha most...its crazie-ness to me!! But im done worryin bout it && write'n about it..Peace! AnJ

Nothin really knew with me.. I been gettin caught up && forgettin about lostcherry.. LoL!! It's just when i get on the puter these days.. straight to myspace i go.. && everything else is lost.

Ne ways, Today was aight.. kicked it with my bro & sister & gladys & went to get hector.. drove around.. he gave bub like 10bones to take him place's.. so it was pretty awesome. After drop'n him off at home came home && called kla.. then sat on this puter pretty much all day after that!! LoL.. My legs muscles are killing me from working yesterday i needed a break.. LoL..

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Hey ya'll.. Im bouts to go to sleep but just wanted to update a min. Im oOo soOo freakin bored, my life is just nothing these days!! I hardly hang out wit friends & I have no job.. but dont remind me of that, i get bitched enough about it all the time.. & i needa get my L's.. But my parents be trip'n sumtimes & it makes it real hard. I made 30$'s yesterday baby sit'n.. Ahhh.. i had fun tho. Tha lil girl was pretty good, it was my cousin's daughter chelsy. She's only 1, and she slept most the time away ne ways. Other then that playin sims & watchin tv is what i be doin.. *haha* cept saturday i went to the Mck VS Perry game. McK won of course.. Blah!

AnJ

Hey ya'll..Im just sit'n here with nothing betta to do, so thought id write a lil suttin suttin. Last night i decided to change myself.. well, not change.. but just be real, be myself.. dont try to please these nigga's & juss be what i wonna.. stop worryin bout *ish!! Yakno?? So i've obviously given up on ...we will call him 3... definitly have! Why sit around & wait for him to want me again when i can be out enjoyin life like he is.. He been thru so many girls since us ne ways.. so what the heck i care ne more for?! I DONT!! Im also given up on these lame ass people who i dont needa be sweatin.. Ya'll kno who ya'll are.. not that none of um have a LC.. but they definitly kno who they is. Thats bout it.. AnGeL