Deadly Desire's blog: "Blogs"

True loves kiss blessed me this one night
It was magical and true, a fairytale ending
But you must understand true love is only the beginning

People fall down into empty spaces
The terror and greif, we don't want to face it
Yet some how each day something changes
Our lives move on, our hearts heal
You begin to relive, to finally feel

I'll show you love in the darkest of days
I'll show you compassion when you've fallen astray
I may not know you, I may love you
But my heart will be true, even for you

I'll be your Guadian Angel while the flames watch you burn
I'll take away this horror, and give you another turn
I'll shed a new light for a better day
A hopeful path so you can find your way

They're plenty of people who break hearts
But remember the ones you've broken from the start
You're not alone, and you never will be
But realize your pain doesn't have to be

For once there's a way to fight back from the hate
Passion is pure, it's something that you can take
Move on with your life even though you're in pain
Because often enough, you'll find something else to gain

- ALL POEMS POSTED IN BLOGS ARE WRITTEN BY ME UNLESS STATED OTHER WISE.

There's only so much I can take
Already shattered, with nothing else to break
Empty and hallow in everything I do
Hoping and praying, I can make it through

I struggle to breathe when I wake up in the mornings
The deary darkened clouds do nothing more than reflect my mood
Countless nights my eyes will cry themselves empty
And my misery lead me to unnatural acts

Though the blood falls so quickly
It's beautiful for what it is
The essence of life and emotions
The color of love and hate, passion and torture

For so long I have wondered what was wrong with me
No energy to focus, to move, to live
But I would never let it win
I would fight back everytime tragedy came my way

Standing alone with no one to help me
I would battle the demons within my own mind
Shoving back the thoughts of anger, pain, and despair

What more could I do besides never give up?
Even at my weakest state, I was never defeated
I found a way to make victory mine

I could see the light at the end of the tunnel
So slowly my hands would dare to reach
I pretended it I could hold, feel it, and be it
I wanted to be my own light within my own path

No one could help me but myself
When your mind is a prison, the outside world is the only scenery you get to see
Its luscious green grass sways in the soft wind
While the dead plants and poluted air dance around you in your cage

The bars are unbreakable
There is only one key
Your heart is already broken, and you can no longer breathe
The tears have long since then dried up
And at last there is nothing left for you to give

The speck of hope that lingers within you
Is the only thing you've got
So you cling to it with your entire life
Barely enough to help you make it to tomorrow
But even at that, it's still enough

*ALL POEMS POSTED IN BLOGS ARE WRITTEN BY ME UNLESS STATED OTHER WISE

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Young and old, wild and tamed
Both of which desribe one persons name
Beautiful and seductive in the eyes of a girl
Who can only wish to be given the world

I thinks about him day and night
Is he the one for me, or is this not right?
He doesn't seem to notice the look in my eyes
The one I get when he just passes by

One filled with hopes and dreams of a fairytale ending
That of which doesn't even have a beginning
I rely on myself to assure that he cares
His rejection I know I could never bare

Yet I walk all alone when the sun goes down
Still thinking about him, even though he's no longer around
I can't ever seem to get him off my mind
For I've done noticed, he's definitely one of a kind

Talented and sweet, cute and charming
The emotions he stirs in me are simply alarming
But the facts still remain, I has nothing left but pain
For being ignored is all I have gained

He's more than just a guy, more than just a friend
A simple crush filled fantasy I'm hoping will somebday end
I know where this can't go, for I've already seen
How the words he spoke to me leave me on my knees

Melted like butter, gasping for air
My heart torn into, trying to tear
It just doesn't seem fair that he cannot even see
How dangerously close he is to killing me

I'm tempted to tell, to let him know
But again I know where this cannot go
It's unfair to say that I can't even be me
Because this amazing boy just doesn't see

I'd lie, I'd try, I'd do anything even die
All just for you, and I'd always be true
Yet I know where this ends
You and I can only be friends

I wish you could see what you've done to me
How sad and depressed I always seem to be
Because I can't have you here holding me
It would just be so much easier if you could just see

- ALL POEMS POSTED IN BLOGS ARE WRITTEN BY ME UNLESS STATED OTHER WISE, THANK YOU -

How was I to know that you would leave me so soon?
Alone and lost I would stay in my own room
You were everything to me and so much more
But I could never openly see how much we had in store

We laughed and played games
Screamed and cried without any shame
I could always count on you to be my crying shoulder
A strong and brave hand, an unmovable bolder

You were my comfort, my awaiting arms
And I know I'll never forget your amazing charm
Your tender smile when you saw my face
Your lovable laughter when I tripped in grace

It was innocent and caring, passionate and pure
Everything one could want, a heart break cure
We shared so many interests, ones crazy an insane
Yet each time we talked, it always made my day

When nobody could cheer me up
You'd find away to make me smile
When nobody could would help me up
You were there to pick up my broken pieces
And when nobody cared enough
You showed me just how much you did

I'll never forget your warm embrace
Or that sweet smile that claimed you face
Your sparkling eyes that seemed to kiss the sky
And your immortal strength that seemed to never break

You were everything to me and I never even knew it
I didn't know how much I cared untill I lost you
That fateful stormy night in late June
When the car crashed and you tumbled out in pain
My heart was ripped into pieces with burning flames

A never ending ache took over my chest
I tried so hard, but it's never at rest
You'll never leave my mind, no matter how many times I try
Your a memory of life that'll just never pass by

- All poems posted in blogs are written by me unless stated other wise -

I look at him through eyes of innocent wonder
Curious as to what lies behind that hidden mask
His midnight black hair and ocean blue eyes
Are something any girl can get lost in

I wonder what its like to be in his arms
To feel his love
And to know that he needs me as much as i need him

I've never honestly been in love before
But looking at this man awakens something remarkable within me
For the first time i feel the need to touch and be touched in return

But is this love? Or is this lust?
Some say there isn't a difference
They both go hand in hand
And what better way to show someone love
Than through the startling eyes of lust?

To give yourself up completely
And surrender to a much greater force
To hold someone so close to you
As if you were one

As if no one could break you
And nothing would hurt you
He would cherish the offering you so willingly give
Delicately rolling his tongue across your skin
Savering the purified taste of luscious desire
Reaching down to pull you higher and higher

Wrapped in a flame burning so strong
You truly wonder could this really be wrong?
To want to feel safe inside someone else
To be given comfort when all else fails

To make tears of joy in times of sadness
To fix memories you wish hadn't happened.
I wonder about him day and night
Feeling this emotion glowing so bright

Is this how it feels to want to be loved?
Or is this just something I've been dreaming of?

The taste of my innocence still lingers on your blood staind lips

While your hands so hard and cold continue to travel along my hips

My whimpers go unheard and my heart breaking cries die

What started out as fun only turned into a horrid lie

It felt wrong to start with but I only wanted to please you

There was nothing in that moment you couldn't make me do

I was trapped in your gaze like a mouse in the eyes of a snake

But you only had one thing on your mind

There was something you wanted to take

I was too young and naive to understand where it was going

Every whisper was a sweet seductive lie that would kill me

Leaving behind a trail of blood red tears

And forever in my heart would I stay in fear

That night my world was changed forever

I could no longer call myself innocent. Not now, not ever.

You took something from me that I can never get back

Deep in my mind I wish to be given a second chance

To change that moment you broke me down to my very core

Shattered every bone in my body until there was nothing more

I still think about that dark memory every once in awhile

And I still feel the affects of your touch so disgusting and vile

I cry myself to sleep some nights wishing to forget

It's the one moment in my life that I deeply regret

So till this day people seem to think that I'm too young to understand

But what they don't realize is what happens when

You go through something so tragic and surreal

It takes away your childhood and the happiness you feel

You no longer see the world in innocence and wonder

You understand all that this world possesses, including its horrors

If only when you're young and believe you're invincible could you just stop and think

It would've been the factor that saved me from losing what was most important to me