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Choke

the author of fight club funny book.

The Unbreakable child

orphan who was abused by catholic officals

Heart shaped box

about a rockstar who buys a ghost and then has to kill him ends up survin

this is why i hate myself and i know its true no one will ever like me..

burnthe.priest: Have fun with that. ruthie !: i dont care about any stupid man off the internet burnthe.priest: Then why post your pics? ruthie !: BECAUSE I FUCKIN CAN ruthie !: trust me tons of desperate yahoo fuckers JUST LIKE U burnthe.priest: I'd rather jerk-off. ruthie !: jack off to them burnthe.priest: You are nasty. ruthie !: im nasty burnthe.priest: No ass. ruthie !: im not the one on here lookin for a women to jack off too burnthe.priest: Nor am I. ruthie !: uh huh ruthie !: im sure burnthe.priest: I'll jack off to porn... not your nasty ass. ruthie !: i have 1075 in my address book ruthie !: and im sure a lot of them jacked off to me burnthe.priest: So? ruthie !: so i dont care ruthie !: what u think ruthie !: or what u do in ur time burnthe.priest: Lies... ruthie !: im liein about home many are on my address book? ruthie !: u want proof ruthie !: because im sure 99% jacked off to me burnthe.priest: Umm.. no. burnthe.priest: yay? ruthie !: k well i dont know why u imedme ruthie !: just delete me if u think im nasty ruthie !: simple as that ruthie !: dumb fuck ruthie !: u start war with me burnthe.priest: lol burnthe.priest: You are funny. burnthe.priest: ...lookin'. ruthie !: uh huh says the old single man burnthe.priest: mhm burnthe.priest: you are right. burnthe.priest: why do you take pics of your ass> burnthe.priest: ? ruthie !: because i can i have ton burnthe.priest: have ton? burnthe.priest: You are uneducated. ruthie !: i have a ton of pictures ruthie !: really look at my degree fucker burnthe.priest: Good for you? burnthe.priest: You're unnattractive. burnthe.priest: Flat ass. ruthie !: cool are we done here burnthe.priest: Are we? ruthie !: because i dont see where we are headed with this? ruthie !: if im soo unattractive why dont u stop talkin to me its that simple burnthe.priest: You are ugly... that is where we're headed. ruthie !: and ur not? burnthe.priest: I am not. ruthie !: im sure burnthe.priest: Thanks. ruthie !: i dont know what u wanrt ruthie !: u want me to kill myself or what ruthie !: like u dont need to be an ass to me burnthe.priest: Huh? ruthie !: like why be rude to me ruthie !: whats the point in this ruthie !: u want me to cry

im so sick of the world it hurts when all u are to people is a sex toy

i wish i could be perfect but i will never be and that sucks

no matter how hard i try i will never be skinny, cute, or smart enouh for anyone

and that truely hurts.

dear bloggy,

this is my first one since 2010... im sick of people so im going to clear out my yahoo list. i guess its not the quanity of friends but the quality so im going to start looking for better friends!

brett ordered a 7.50 drink and only had 5 bucks he annoys me so much! so i had to pay for it he angrys me so much!

love,

ruthie

1. write a new blog everyday

2. lose weight

3. go to nationals fro track

4. stop drinking soda

5. find a better bf

6. find a better job

dear bloggy,

hey, im tired and have really nothing to say my mom is in the hospital and will be having surgery on her leg tomorrow.

love,.

ruthie

dear bloggy,

my laptop charger is broken so i need to buy a new one today so i can write this stuff on my computer. i need to work out but its not going to happen today because i have to work 2:30 to 11 :( im also going to go shopping before i go to work. so i can buy more panties :D i dont know im just kind of sick of things. but i think everything will work out in the end i just need to keep stressing till then. oh i got a 3.5 gpa.

love,

ruthie

dear bloggy,

so today i was hung over... i drank thursday night with my bf. well we had sex then we went to bed and woke up at 5 in the morning he had to stay up..so he can work all night.. well i started vomiting because i was hung over and he really didnt even ask me if i was okay... hes such a douche and he didnt tell me he had a xmas party at 9 in the morning and i had to sit there till 130 then pick him up in which i wa supset because i just sat a lone at his house. then when we got there we were on his couch and hes like i think i need to go to bed i was like really dude! seriously that pisses me off. then he went and sat on the recliner and really didnt talk to me for 2 hours like i dont know why i bother spending time with him when hes always busy doing other shit. i just sit there and text other guys. so i met this cool guy the other day and now were pretty good friends and he found out today his ex is preggo and im upset about it because i was hoping that there was a way we could be together i guess not now.. which im upset about i also had to work from 5:30 to 11 today and i have to work 2:30 to 11 tomorrow :(

love

ruthie 

dear bloggy

day 2..

so im sitting in a room in the dorm over listen to a exchange soccer play i think shes introuble for playing professional and then coming here which u cant do..

i have now taken 3 finals and got two Bs and i hope the rest are A's

i had to write 12 pages and mine was the frist one the teacher got its about my depressing life. yuck.

love,

ruthie

im excited about tomorrow because im going to be drinking yay!

dear bloggy,

so i use to write in a blog everyday on myspace but now i dont like myspace and the last time i was on it wwas a year ago i need a new place to write to so i picked my beloved fubar.

so today wasnt that bad i had a final at 10 and of course i woke up at 10.... so we were suspost to do presentations then take a test but we ran out of time and the teacher didnt give us the test! which was supper sweet because i didnt study that hard. i have 3 finals tomorrow which they will all be easy.

then i need to pack and get away from the dorms which sucks becausei  have to take the fish with me. i dont know where to take him. and i dont want to go home for xmasbecause my dad was a super dick last tiem i was at my house here is the story:

9:47 am i get 2 corn dogs out of the package my dads like how much do u weigh and im like 263... hes like u should be down to 200 and im like yeah it doesnt happen in a week. then hes like i know. hes like u shouldnt be eafting that and i was like well i have to get to work at 11 and i wont have time to get breakfest or lunch break and my dinner is at 4:30 and hes like u should eat a piece of toast and im like thats not going to hold me till then. so i was like fine i wont eat so i walked away and got into my room and got all my sister ready and left.

10:00 im walking out i say bye... and my dads like wait what time will u be home i say 6 or 7 i dont know im on call. then hes like stop being childish and come eat. im like no i dont have time now i have to be at work at 11. then hes like ur running around here being childish and ur mom needs to go to the hospital. and i was like dad whatever just call me fat because really i dont care then hes like ur fat! and i slam the door.

it really upsets me to know my dad doesnt love me because im 5'11 and 265 he isnt skinny either. but hes nice to my sister who has 5 kids! its like where does it matter how much i weigh im not living off of u im on my own i got a 3.7 gpa and yet he doesnt think anything is good enough unless im on my death bed weighing 100 pounds with feeding tubes running out of  me it makes me sick just to know that im not good and losing the 30 pounds wasnt good enough for him. i wish i could just run away and leave everything in the past. some might say that is any easy task. but not when it is so mentally in ur head to know u will never be good enough and always fat. he has verbal abused my mom for so long it hurts me to even look at my mom to know  shes in pain from all these. sometimes i just want to run and do drugs to avoid the pain but life isnt that easy and drugs arent that cheap. i dont want to look weak either having to do to the doctor to tell them i am depressed makes me feel week like i cant live a normal life like everyone else. i hate the people who live off the state for bull shit "illness" i dont want to be one of those people.

anyhow i will be drinkng thursday so im pretty stoked...

anyone can commit on my blogs and say whatever u want i like when people read them ....

love,

ruthie