darkangel28's blog: "Bloggins"

I didn't know how much i would like you

i didn't know how much i would care

i didn't know how much i would need you

I didn't know that thease feelings wouldn't leave

i didn't know i could be what you need

I didn't know thease feelings wouldn't fade

I just wish they wouldn't have stayed

I know im not what you want.

I know im not what you need

Im not the beautiful women that you want.

I just the pretty girl on the side line..

who will be there no matter what..

 If you only knew..

if you only knew how i felt

if you only knew

if you only could see how i look at you

if you could only see

if you could only feel what i feel

if you could only feel

but you can't becasue you don't know..

I hate they way i fall so easy

I hate the way  I care

I hate the way you make me feel

I hate the way I can get you out of my head

I hate this Jelously i feel

I hate that i can't tell you how i feel

I hate that you don't even know i exist

I hate that im not what you want

but most of all I don't hate you i just hate that i can't get you out my mind or heart...

Lyrics to Broken :
Wake up to a sunny day
not a cloud up in the sky,
then it starts to rain
My defenses hit the ground,
And they shatter all around.
So open and exposed.

I found strength in the struggle.
Face to face with my trouble.

When you're broken in a million little pieces
and you're tryin but you cant hold on anymore.
Every tear falls down for a reason.
Don't you stop believing in your self.
When you're broken.

Little girl don't be so blue,
I know what you're goin through.
Don't let it beat you up.
Heaven knows that getting scars only makes you who you are...
only makes you who you are.

No matter how much your heart is aching,
there is beauty in the breaking....yeeeaaaahhh


When you're broken in a million little pieces and
you're tryin but you cant hold on anymore.
Every tear falls down for a reason.
Don't you stop believing in yourself. When you're broken.


Better days are gonna find you once again every
piece will find its place!


When you're broken in a million little pieces
and you're tryin but you cant hold on anymore.
Every tear falls down for a reason. don't you stop
believin in your self When you're broken.

She walks in Beauty

she walks in grace

she hides the scars 

she hides the pain

They will never know

hell she has walked

they will never know

where she has been

as

She walks in beauty

she walks in grace

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It comes in all shapes and sizes but if there is one thing i have learned its that only you can make your self happy. your friends can help but you have to be willing to let your self be happy.

Its not about getting to were your going

its about how you got there.

As i walk along the water i relize im not alone.

my refelection is there and its holds everything that i am

when someone asks who i am.

I look at my refection.

I see a women who got lost for awhile

but has found her way everytime

a women whos cards that were delt sucked

but played it and is winning so far

a women who has been used and abused

but still has risen above all of it

to become someone who is happy..

I know i haven't been the best i can be. now is a new day. and i will show you all who the real me is To the most awsome Lounge out there (THE RED DRAGON'S REALM) thank you for being honest. I love you all. I promise no more negitive nancy!!.

 Ive walked through darkness, I hid in shadows, Ive lost but won, ive ran and fell. but now i rise and meet the light. the dark is my home and the shadows my security. The light will guid me to my new place and show me how to love once more..

Well i decided i wanted to write a quick blog. i need to say im not invisable i might feel like i am but i am who i am. that means i will not be a supermodel or a pornstar. but that i will be just me. take it or leave it.