That's my best R2-D2 impression.
A last letter to the girl I'm in love with, but can't be with. See: "You're Beautiful by James Blunt". Names have been removed to protect the (not so) innocent.
Dear xxxx,
I didn’t forget your birthday. I made this card for you over a month ago, but I didn’t want to give it to you on your birthday week. I thought about bringing it to you in person, but I didn’t want anyone to see me walking back to your office and making this more awkward for you.
Hopefully you read the card. A half year ago today was the last time I saw you. Even after all this time, I’m still in love with you. That’s what the card is meant to say, but nothing more. Not even time, or everything that’s happened since, has made me feel any different about you. A lot has happened to me and changed me in the last six months, but I still love you. I don’t want to be, I wish I wasn’t, I’ve tried every last thing I could think of to not feel that way. But I’ll always be in love with you. I wanted to tell you that for the last time.
The reason I blocked your email wasn’t because I was angry with you, because I’m not. I don’t hate you. You probably don’t remember, but last summer I told you that every time I heard your voice or read one of your emails, I fell in love with you all over again. And as long as you’re in my life I’ll always want more than what you can give me. That’s not healthy for either of us. That’s why I can’t email you.
I wish I could have said goodbye to you in person. You mean more to me than a letter or a card or en email or a phone call to say it. I’ll always keep the good memories of being with you, and your smile, and your bright eyes, and your laugh, and how you couldn’t beat me at Connect 4. These feelings will be pushed deep down inside of me, but I’ll never forget you. You really are the most incredible, most special person I’ve ever met in my life. I love you. Take care of yourself and (her daughter), she’s a wonderful little girl, and I’ll miss her too. Just be HAPPY.
Goodbye, xxxx.
-Ron
