gee gee's blog: "below"

de·te·ri·o·rate ..> 1. to make or become worse or inferior in character, quality, value, etc. ..> ..> 2. to disintegrate or wear away. ..> In your life you decide the paths you want to take. Weather it be wonderful or bad , it's all about what you make it. When all is is running smooth and working out according to some kind of invisible plan you feel as if your life is begining to make sense. But what happens when that plan is cut off and you come to realize that it wasn't as smooth running or as great as you possibly thought? Do your dreams begin to deteriorate? Trying to concentrate on the positive, you can't help but let the thought of loosing your grasp on something you wanted so intensly consume you. Will you let it eat at you until there is nothing left of what once was alive. Are you holding on to something that wasn't meant to be? Was this just a lesson in life to prepare you for something to come? Are you willing to take that deep breathe and swallow your sadness and let go? You feel the overwhelming aches of your emotions running though your body like electricity. Your begin to deteriorate from the inside out. Could this be a new begining? You close your eyes and in an instant memories flood your mind of every event that meant something to you. Vividly streaming through , you break a smile, you let out a chuckle, and finally drop a tear. You're ready to let go. You open your eyes and say goodbye. Because in this life you decide what path you take , whether it be good or bad , it's all about what you make it.

how many times must i say it you never listen.. i can only ask so much.. i know its my fault... the blame game at its best. ripped into pieces and melted on the hot summer sidewalk. i saw your expression. i wasnt surprised. walk away as quick as you can dont worry about me im not looking back. you dont comprehend but i dont care ill get the last laugh keep standing there. still in time you wont last , on my own two feet fuck your past. like a stranger off the street, weve never met.. id like to live with no regrets. with your smirk and your smile trying to irritate me your trying to get under my skin.. it doesnt phase me. as i turn to walk away the touch on my hand.. its so cold , and lifeless. i understand

now that the tables have turned.. do you see? NO really do you see? Your true intentions to live your life youve set off to be free.. your mind is racing not knowing which memories to cherish.. only one to chose from , and the rest will perish.. i ask if you see it.. do you fucking understand.. you cant fix what you broke. cant take back what you said. its what was meant to be... get over it... i did.. You continue on with your horendous lies trying to fight your demons it doesnt work so why try You tell yourself to leave it alone and let it be. Remember this is the way you wanted it.. so now let me be free..

Falling rapidly into an endless cold. Spiraling downward into the darkdepths where not even shadows like to be. When does it ever end? . . The suffering treading in , your mind encased with pain , you want it to end quickly like a band-aid being ripped from your flesh.You try to call out, but no sound to make, random thoughts piercing your memory enhancing your pain .As you breath in deeply, a cold sensation moves through out your body , begining from the tips of your toes working its agonizing pain up your body until it reaches your head. Almost completley numb and it seems to be ending. A ray of light looking downward you see, you realize this is the end of the line and a place you don't want to be. How did i get this far? you think , what did i do? You sold your sould to the Devil .. and payment is due..