xLx's blog: "Battered but not Defeated"

She stands at the window, looking out, a tear falling down her smooth cheek

Running her finger gently down the dewy pane, her heart weeps

Wonderng what it is about her that keeps anyone from loving her

Always leaving after they finish chasing, after the challenge is gone.

Her long black lashes wet with tears, she lowers them to her cheek

As she closes her eyes, biting her soft lip, to keep from crying out.

Leaning her head against the window,

She slumps over in despair, wondering what she's done so wrong.

Not normally a person that gets so down upon herself, she trembles,

With vulnerability, not knowing how to take herself out of her despair.

Lifting her smooth young face up, her sharp brown eyes brimming with tears,

She looks out at the sky as far as the eyes could see and remembers...

She wonders sadly, if it's something about her that chases the men away.

Is it wrong to be a lady, one that is intelligent, smart, funny?

Knowing deep down that she has those great qualities to offer a man,

Confusion sets in as to why men run after the chase is over.

Standing near the window, she blinks the tears away from her vibrant brown eyes,

As her fingers grip the wooden ledge painfully.

Raising her chin defiantly, her eyes blaze with anger,

As she recounts over the same damn scenarios:

Woman meets man, woman begins to like the man,

Man shows interest in the woman,

The woman tells him that she is interested in him as well,

The moment she tells him she wants him too, the man is no longer interested.

The woman is left standing alone, choking on the heart he threw back at her.

Knowing all this time, that all he was interested in, was the challenge of the chase.

Not really interested in a relationship, he played his games well.

Throwing her away and forgetting about her, as he moves onto someone new not long after.

Running her finger down the wet window pane one last time,

She looks up to the heavens with teary brown eyes and pleads,

"Oh Father, please hear me...help me heal my ravaged heart, I am broken"

Turning her back to the window, she walks into the shadows, as her heart bleeds.

Not defeated....but needing solitude to heal,

Her spirit unbreakable yet shaken, she picks herself up

Walking out in the moonlight, she raises her beautiful face as the rain pours,

Cleansing her spirit and heart, her inner strength never allowing her to give up.