i've tried reaching around in the dark
only to find empty cold sheets
i've tried a seductive whimper to call you back
but still you linger out there;
who is she?
are you thinking of her when you're lying next to me?
does she make you feel like i used to?
i shiver in anticipation
tears start to warm my face
pulling the covers up over my head
i drift into another sleepless night
waiting for you
and getting nothing in return.
my thoughts swim in a sea of depression
i wonder:
does she know i'm there?
what would she say
if our eyes met one day?
i cry, uncontrollably
i hear the door unlock
then replaced again, quietly
so as not to disturbe the sleeping dead-
i am turned, silent
he thinks i am asleep
and as he slips into bed,
i smell her.
i'll bite my lip
and dream of better days,
until i find a "better man"*
*this ending was starred because i haveto give credit where credit is due, pear jam, better man.
