Little Angel's blog: "Baby"

My son Tre the 7 month old just broke his first tooth through today...FINALLY! lol

Trapped in this world and feeling all alone No one there to hold her in times of need No one she can hold of her own Some how this seems it's how it will be When will she open her world Let a stranger inside to know Allow her heart to grow again And let all those feelings show The games that are played They cause so much pain The little problems in life They are always there with nothing to gain She lies alone in the dark There's sounds coming from across the hall She's reaching out for love She wants to cry, to die but she can't give it up Bruses in her heart won't go away Mom tells her over time the feeling will fade She's so broken hearted she doesn't think so She won't open her heart up for another blow Did she ever have it? What her poems have written The love she seeks is it in the commandments? Honoring and finding true love in our children She waits quietly for the lonelyness to stop She knows in time it will but till then she's like a rock She'll hold her aching heart till she finds someone new She's almost lost her hope of that too Her heart still can dream. Not to live out her life by herself But everyone seems to believe That money is all you need. As her heart longs to believe The greatest love to see Was someone holding her in her dreams Each others hearts wrapped through out eternity Well Heaven surely knows That it's not that easy as to come in rainbows Can her heart ever heal A human soul can make living hard That's why love needs to start And time would heal her heart What is this illusion called the innocence of affection Maybe only in her blind belief can she ever find the direction No more hearts torn apart And time would heal all hearts. And in the end they'd be each others friend And her hearts would always win And love would never end

I believe whole heartedly that there is someone out in this world that is ment for us or as close to being ment for us as possible. the question is are we truly opening our hearts and minds to them or are we closing them off and looking past them with just a smile because maybe they don't meet our look standards or maybe they don't have the money in their lives like we want from the other person. Who knows. there are millions of reasons that we can come up with that will tell you why we look away from them with only being polite and having a brief conversation with them or maybe even not looking at them at all. But I know that the right one is no such thing. The real one and the one that we allow ourselves to get to know and open our minds and hearts to and allowing a physical response to happen are the ones that are ment for us. Not "The One"! Sorry. I'm not sure what got into me with that but I agree it must have needed to come out because I didn't stop typing till the end and when that sort of thing happens I know it's something that needed to come out.

My love is crying out for you Yet my living status stops me It's bringin me to my knees Baby when can our love be set free My tears pour out when the pain rises How can I live when I can't be with The man that holds my heart in his eyes And has my cherished love with just one cry My world is complete with him To laugh, touch and feel him is like Pure passion, love and joy in my veins My poor heart has known no sweeter pain Share my love, world and life Be with me through all it's time Let me share it all with you Together we can make this world brand new

When does it become rational thinking for words to not be thought out first on how they will effect someone else's emotions entirely? When does it become "OK" to emotionally hurt someone? Should sorry be enough spoken in terms for forgiveness with verbal and emotional abuse?

~I looked into the screen and who did I see? The one I had been reaching to but could only talk to in my dreams. I wonder, will he talk to me tonight or just pass me by? ~Desire I have felt and I'm sure always will. The question of the times, is will I get to have it full filled? I can't win the race. I go through life without a trace. I can however try to walk with head held high and body moving with grace. ~Is he distracted and unable to reply or is he trying to see if I have tears in my eyes. ~Hinder my heart..I have tried to hide it from all to see. Yet some how from you I can't make that be. I look at you and see a dream. I talk with you and feel how it would be. ~Yet the walls are still high and the risk is there. Will I have the chance or do you even dare? ~The walls have started to close in and it's hard to breathe. This Angel needs light to shine and love free. Her heart was broken over again but she sings her love for one heart to begin. ~Will he reach in and set her heart free? Or will he leave her caged for the world to see? The darkness is cold and weariness sets in, all longs for is the love once she had known. ~Can't he see she knows what's at stake? She knows some dragons of his past and is willing to hold steady and fast. Can't he see she wants to try not to lead him through life but to be there at his side? ~Anguish has come to fill her heart. She is no hero just a seeker of inamorata from the start. ~Letting go is hard to do when the desire is strong and calling after you. You tell me how you feel and what I'm up against but can't you see? I haven't given up on you and me. I want the chance for us to try. But when I feel I get close the walls come up and I feel the need to cry. ~Dieing inside is slowly coming. I'm closed off once again from something I have only touched. The taste will bring me back to where I was before. But yet when we talk I see the solid door. You start to let me in and I start to get close. Then you feel yourself givin in and I feel I'm at war with a ghost. ~Embracing of these emotions is how I must live. I can not close you out of my mind or in my dreams. It's up to you to tell me where I stand if there is a chance for us or should I lose intrest in you as a partner of mine that is a carring man? ~I don't ask for your best. I just ask you to be you. Dragons and white clouds of yesterday and today. I want to have that walk with you. And when we dance, I want to match your rhythm and when we laugh I want to cry with you. I hold out a light through your darkness of deep. Hoping someday you'll come find me. ~I seek no hero. I seek the man I see hiding inside. Who has hope that love will come again someday. ~Too weak to stand but not too weak to feel the touch of my hand. A little touch is all is takes to feel the care pour out my soul into that fragile man. ~The Angel with her song will sing till he hears her no more. She sings of the love she feels and the pain all so real. She sings of a solider who was almost slain but lasted to this day. She sings of a time when love holds strongest to pain and she whispers in that soliders ear that she'll always be near

Tre Dillon Born: January 17, 2007 Weight: 6 pounds 1 and a half ounces Height: 19 inches Time: 1:13pm Place: Magic Valley Hospital Mother is doing ok. She is still in recovery from the C-section. She is at home now and is tired most of the time but loves the precious gift God has given her. Tre has already shown signs of being a mom's boy and is loving every minute of it. Even the many times he wakes up during the night. She will have pictures posted as soon as she can. Thanks everyone for your caring words, thoughts and prayers.