Flamin Nipples's blog: "Baby"

I made the call today to find out what the results were for my tests I've been having done. I was hoping for good news and thought that everything was going to be fine, but instead I got the bad news. I was informed that I completely aborted the baby. This is now my 4th miscarriage. Third in a row, had one in December of 2004, one in March of this year and one now. I'm not taking it very well to be totally honest. I don't know how I'm gonna get through this. I just want to curl up and sleep and never wake up. I wanted this baby so bad and to find out that I lost another baby is like losing another piece of me. I feel so empty and feel like I have no answers for anything that's going on with me. I don't understand why this keeps happening. Anyway, if you have my yahoo feel free to try and reach me on there. If not I'm sure I'll check my fubar from time to time, but I'm not sure I'll feel like talking much for a while. I'm not really up for talking or anything. I am still trying to find out who my friends are around here since I moved back home. It's been tough making new ones since I stay home with the kids all the time and at this point I'm not sure I really care all that much. I just want to be left alone, but I know that's not going to happen cause I'm not allowed to be left alone now. If you have any questions or anything you can leave me a message or try to reach me and I'll try to talk, but no promises. Talk to you all later.

I went back to the hospital today to get more blood work done, but I'm still waiting on the results. I was hoping to get the results today, but haven't heard anything yet. . . . so I plan on calling in the morning to try to find out something. I will try to let everyone know as soon as possible after I find out something. But as things sit right now, I'm still waiting and still on bedrest. We're hoping for the best though.

I went to the doctor today for my follow up after the hospital visit last night. The doctor still isn't calling it a miscarriage, but isn't ruling it out either. They saw something on the sonogram, but aren't sure what it was. They said it's too early to tell just yet. They said that it could turn into a miscarriage, but I could also carry to term. It's possible that there's something wrong with the baby or it's possible that the baby isn't in my uterus. I go tomorrow to get more blood work done at the hospital and hopefully we'll know more either tuesday or wednesday. Then after that I wait until the 23rd and then I'll go back to the doctor for another follow up and should know more then. The doctor said he should be able to see something on the sonogram by then. Until then I still have to take it easy.

Most of you know that I'm about 7 weeks pregnant. I had a scare yesturday and had to go to the hospital. I have been bleeding and with my history with miscarriages I didn't want to take any chances. They did blood work and ran some tests. I was put a little at ease when they told me that everything is normal except the fact that I'm bleeding. So as of right now I'm not having a miscarriage, but that could change at any given moment. I'm not dialated or anything so that is a good sign. The ultrasound didn't show any problems with the baby either so we're prayin that things turn out alright. I have been put on bedrest and have to go in for an emergency follow up appointment today and then go back to the hospital for more blood work tomorrow. They gave me something for the pain last night so I passed out when I got home. It was nice to get some sleep anyway, I have a hard time sleeping these days. ~ Anyway, just thought I would keep everyone up to date on things. As of right now I am still having a baby, but we'll know more over the next few days.

Pregnancy 7 Weeks Fetal Development Your baby is now between 0.44 and 0.52 inches in length and about 0.03 ounces in weight. This is about the size of a small bean. The heart bulges from the body and is now divided in two chambers, right and left. Lungs are taking shape with the primary bronchi, the air passages in the lungs, already present. Your baby's brain is growing rapidly to fill the now formed, enlarging head. The spinal cord, which passes messages from the brain throughout the rest of the body, is also developing. Your baby's face is taking shape. The mouth perforation, nostrils, ear indentations, as well as the retina and lens of the eyes are some of the developments taking place this week. Your baby's arms and legs are starting to form. The arm buds are divided into shoulder and hand segments. Hands and feet have formed digital plates where fingers and toes will develop. The genital tubercle is forming, but the two sexes are still indistinguishable at this point. Intestines are developing within the umbilical cord, and the appendix is present. The intestines will later migrate into the abdominal cavity. The pancreas, which produces the hormone insulin, is also present.

Pregnancy 6 Weeks Fetal Development Your period is now 1 week late. If you have irregular periods, or experienced implantation bleeding, you still may not realise you are pregnant! Since it's very difficult to measure your baby from head to toe (he or she is shaped like the letter "C"), the "crown to rump length" is used instead during the first few months. The baby is measured from the crown of their head to the base of their rump. By the end of this week the baby will measure around 0.08 to 0.16 inches (Crown to Rump). Your baby's heart is already beating at a regular rhythm. The heart is now just a long tube, but by week 10 it will have developed into it's various chambers and valves. You will have to wait until week 10-12 before you can actually hear your baby's heart. Blood circulation is well established, with the blood being produced by the yolk sac. Your baby's neural tube, which connects the brain and spinal cord, now closes. Be sure to take the B vitamin, folic acid, during the first two months of pregnancy to reduce the risk of serious birth defects of the brain and spiral cord. More than 50% of neural tube defects can be prevented this way. During this week, small hand and feet buds are beginning to appear. The umbilical cord, which provides nourishment and oxygen from the placenta to your baby, and removes carbon dioxide and waste products from your baby, develops from the implantation site of the blastocyst. The placenta will soon take over from the yolk sac. The larynx (voice box) begins to form, as well as the inner ear and eyes. The beginnings of the digestive and respiratory systems are evident.

Pregnancy 5 Weeks Fetal Development By now, you probably have begun to suspect you are pregnant. Your period is late and now is a good time to take a Home Pregnancy Test. These tests measure the amount of HCG present in your urine. A blood or urine test could detect pregnancy as early as a few days after a missed period. The blastocyst is now called an "embryo". The developing embryo now consists of three different layers, all specialized according to functions. The outer layer (ectoderm) will become the neural tube, from which the nervous system, brain, backbone and spinal cord will sprout. The inner layer (endoderm) will develop into the breathing and digestive organs and the middle layer (mesoderm) will become the baby's skeleton, muscles, kidneys, sex organs and heart. The heart, brain, spinal cord, central nervous system, muscles and bones are already in the early stages of development. The placenta, which will nourish your baby, and the amniotic sac, which keeps your baby safe from outside bounces and shocks, are forming, too. Pregnancy can be detected with ulstrasound in week 5 or 6 at earliest. A tiny sac can be seen, but the heart beat can't be detected yet.

Pregnancy 4 Weeks Fetal Development The morula has continued to divide and now consists of hundreds of cells. The structure is now known as a blastocyst. As soon as blastocyst gets to the uterus, it will embed itself into the endometrium (uterine lining), a process called implantation. It takes about 6 days for implantation to complete. About 8 to 10 days after conception, the baby starts to produce Human Chorionic Gonadotropin, or HCG for short. These hormones prevent your next menstrual period from coming, allowing the baby to safely develop. It's these hormones that are used to detect pregnancy in a Home Pregnancy Test. A minority of women experience a small amount of bleeding as their baby embeds itself into the endometrium. Implantation bleeding can be noticed around the same time as the expected menstruation. It therefore is often confused with having a period. Implantation bleeding is usually less and of a different color than a normal period. The endometrium will provide vital nutrients to the developing embryo and will remove it's wastes. Once settled in, the blastocyst begins to split in two groups. One group of cells will become the placenta, and the other group will become the embryo.