azcutie's blog: "Azcutie's thoughts"

Lookingover my shoulder Through the mist on the path of the past I see times that we shared together Times where no dim shadows were cast Holding each other's hand We would walk for what seemed like miles Telling each other our secrets Watching each other smile Those times ended not so long ago And now we've grown apart But I'll never forget our special moments The memories linger on in my heart

I wish I had.... A little bit of your love, A bit of your time, Just to show you care. A moment of your life, With me very near, A piece of your heart, Understanding for a tear. A simple hello Not a soon goodbye A show of feeling No need to be shy A part of your life I want so bad A small portion of your love, I wish I had

Love is the magic in the way You hold me in your eyes Noone ever warned me of love It took me by suprise I dont know what came over me You have me hypnotized When you look at me The feelings, not like anything I've known before Your all I dreamed love would be And so very much more I cant believe its true You feel the way I do Soft as any touch can be Suddenly theres magic When you look at me I feel like I'm in heaven Every moment when you look at me I can see the magic in your eyes And I'm captured When you look at me

Did you know you're my whole life? And how I love you more each day? And did you know, that I would die If you ever went away? Did you know your always on my mind? That you're everything I do? And did you know you could touch my heart Just by saying "I love you"? Did you know that I feel so happy When I think of all we share? And did you know I feel so safe Because I know your always there? Did you know I give you this, Its a gift from me to you To answer the question Do I love you? Yes I do!!

I've tried to block your memory To protect me from the pain Pretend I never knew you And never knew your name But the walls I built arent strong enough And though I fight my tears in vain The feelings still come creepipng through And the hurt is still the same I wish that I could forget you Or make you see me now I thought you really loved me But it seems you dont know how The pain will ease with time And the tears will subside And though I know it may be over That what we had may be gone The memories will live forever In a corner of my mind

I’ll Know Oh how dark and lonely it is Outside in the misty rain Deep inside my heart is warm Something I just cant explain These feelings I have for you Wont be denied inside For love is something I can never hide Sometimes you'll fool around And how I wish you knew That deep inside my heart, I'm crying Crying out for you Just hold me and tell me That you'll never let me go Maybe its just a dream But I really long to know How do you feel about me? How do I know if you care? When all you do sometimes Is just sit there So show me, if you dare And let me look within your heart And then I'll know you care

Why did you leave when I needed you the most? Now that your gone, I sometimes see and feel your ghost. Are you really here with me or is all thats left of you a dream? Sometimes I hear your laughter in the quiet nights. Can I Leave you behind and forget all that we shared? No, that would be impossible; I would never dare. Promise you'll never forget me, what we did, hear and see. I can close my eyes and rememeber the times we shared. Sharing in the joys and sorrows, we knew each other cared. I wish that I could hold you again at least one more time To tell you how special you were, one of a kind. Maybe one day, I'll get you out of my mind But until that time - I'm so glad I was yours and you were mine.

TO THOSE I LOVE AND THOSE WHO LOVE ME When I am gone, release me, let me go I have so many things to see and do You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears Be happy that we had so many years I gave to you my love. You can only guess How much you gave to me in happiness I thank you for the love you each have shown But now it's time I traveled on alone So grieve awhile for me, if grieve you must Then let your grief be comforted by trust It's only for awhile that we must part So bless the memories within your heart I won't be far away, for life goes on So if you need me, call and I will come Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near And if you listen with your heart, you'll hear All of my love around you soft and clear And then, when you must come this way alone I'll greet you with a smile and "Welcome Home"

How do we measure time? Time is measured by events in our lives, be it joyous,sad,uneventfull, daily, weekly, monthy. Sometimes we measure time by each passing moment, each painful, single, passing moment. Sometimes each one being so happy that they fly by and we cant hold on to them hard enough. We need to cherish each and every moment in our lives, regardless of their joy or sadness for we truly have no idea how many more moments each one of us will have left. A year has now passed and I still wonder how long this feeling will last. Some days it feels so long ago and sometimes it feels like yesterday. I did learn from someone special who taught me all my life, that even if we are still here with our loved ones, we may not be here any longer, so hold on. Hold on to each and every moment, good or bad. Hold on and file that memory away to grab it at every chance you get, for as long as you can grab it and never let it go.

Trust is a funny and fragile thing in life We trust in God to always love, guide, comfort and be full of grace and forgiveness for us We trust in our military to protect us from enemies We trust in friends to always be honest and supportive when we need them As children we trust our parents to always love and care for us, no matter what we do We trust doctors with our health and even our lives We trust teachers with the most precious gifts that God has given us We trust police officers with our safety We trust lawyers with our security and futures So why is it when we trust another with the most delicate thing we have, our hearts, it's so damn hard. Hard to trust enough in another person to allow them into your heart. So hard to entrust another human to hold such a precious, delicate thing in their hands and care for it and not shatter it into a million pieces