Katara Kat's blog: "Anything and Everything"

Heart n Soul I thought I knew what love was Till I met a man who showed me the light He opened my eyes to new things He opened my mind to new ideas He opened my soul to the light He opened my body to passion And he opened my heart to love like no other Before him all I knew was darkness To me love was always pain But I met him and darkness turned to light And pain turned to passion I curl up to him and I feel safe He looks at me I feel his love He touches me and I feel his passion I see in his eyes that I will always be safe I can't wait to come his wife To live our lives as one All because I finally found what true love is And I have found it in him In his heart In his eyes In his soul In his arms To the end of time I now know what love feels like And to be loved by another He is someone I know that will protect me That will show me the way That will guide me And that will be there for me in one way or another He is the man I truely love with all my heart and soul. AE 27 Oct 07

With the spirit of a wolf And a Heart of Fire He's every mans envy and every womans desire Untamed by nature and a Rogue by choice with laughin hazel eyes and his warm whiskey voice He'll tempt and teaseun till you go insane oh but this pleasure is the sweetest of pain he's hotter than fire don't be burned by the flame he can't be caught he won't be tamed Don't try to trap him he'll only soar above Only the bravest woman Is worthy of his love He's passionate and fierce this untamed soul he can move me to tears he could make me whole With his spirit of a wolf and that heart of fire I'm consumed in the flame He's my heart's desire.

ALONE IN THE DARK I sit here crying alone in the dark Wishing, hoping that the man she loves was here to comfort her. I lie here staring at the time Wishing, hoping that it would go by faster. I sit in bed holding my wolfie crying into its fur Wondering: Why am I such a fuck up? Why does no one truly loves me? Why did God keep me on this Earth? What did I do so wrong to get hurt like this? Am I being punished for something? I sit and cry a lot alone in the dark With the one person she loves so much not really caring That she is crying. I lie in bed with nothing else to do ‘Cept wonder does he hate me that much to hurt me like this. I sit here watching the candles flicker and smelling the incense burning Trying not to cry no more but can’t Cause wondering what is going to happen Is he going to try what was suggested or is he going to blow it off And hope we forget about it Does he love me enough to do this or is he just saying he will Hoping it will blow over like nothing ever happened. I sit here a lot looking at my ring Wondering is he going to break the biggest promise to me Or is he actually going to help and make it come true. I lie in bed unable to sleep Some is from being too hurt Some is from being too afraid to close eyes Some of it is from the nightmares that come about in dreams But most of it is don’t want to sleep without him there to make it alright and safe. His arms around me His kiss upon my lips or cheek His comforting words His overall presence Makes it safe to sleep even in dreams. I lie here alone in the dark Crying and wishing he would understand That my heart is his to keep I won’t take it back He has my heart till eternity. Alone in the dark isn’t a place I want to be Unless he comforts me to safety. The pain, the hurt, the crying Is all because I love him so much And never want to lose him. If you ever loved someone so much You know alone in the dark is only best When the one you love is there to make everything safe. AE 24 June 07

If Only I Could Cry Wrote by Amanda "Kat" Published 2001 Have you ever felt a great pain, a sorrow beyond believe. and been unable to cry? To easily hurt and to hurt hard, and not be able to cry? To ache and to morn and only squeeze a single salty tear. If only I could cry, so much pain would be let free. If only I could show the pain building up inside. Let me cry, please let me cry I beg to no one at all. let me sob, and let me whine. Yet when I hurt and my heart needs freeing, my eyes barely seem to wet. I havent cried in years, though my feelings push and scream. Loss and sorrow hurt and pain, never more than a few tiny drops is all my eyes will give.... I wonder shall I ever cry again? If only I could cry I feel I could truly live.

Lost n confused Walks into a room sits lonely and confused wondering what will come of me will i ever find happiness or am i doomed to be alone random thoughts rush thru my head cant differ one from another everything seems to be a blur knows it cause im lost n confused but wonders if it will ever end or am i suppose to walk aimlessly in circles knows people care know im wanted but why do i feel so lost n confused i dont want to be a bother i just want to get out off this ride im on that seems to have kept me in this fog but i will continue to wonder where am i suppose to be or is there a reason for me to be so many things have happened alot i regret so many appologies i have made but will anyone ever accept wonders where i belong alone or with family shall i embrace my feelings or let them go knows what im writing is most likely a drag but has no other way to express the thoughts running thru my head people wonder why i look so sad it prolly cause of the confusion i feel hates to be lost and not know where to go or what to do hates the things that happened in past but has no clue how to reconcile the wrongs i have made can someone help me or do i have to do it alone bein lost n confused is nowhere to belong wrote by Amanda "Kat" Farris

Well today fucking sucked like hell.... I got fired from work today cause they said I had attitude problem all because I asked supervisor to let me watch others so I could learn something instead of the one I was sent to watch cause all I got to do was sit at a table by myself soldering scrap boards with messed up parts learning nothing about the jobs we might have to do... After I asked one of the trainers if I could watch her do visual inspections on some boards so I could learn what she is doing and know what to look for and all .. she snapped at me and told me to go back over to what I was doing said she doubt I'd ever be doing that type of job anyhow eventho most of the jobs include a type of inspection of boards to look for defects ... well after that she told the head supervisor that I was refusing to work and that I had attitude problem so they called the temp agency supervisor on site and told them to reassign me to a new job before anyone actually talked to me and got the facts.... I had to go back to the agency I work thru and was able to get a different job at York guess we will see how that goes. I was told the supervisors at York do treat their employees lot better and will work with you more than where I was at.

LEAVE YOUR SHIRT FOR HER TO SLEEP ON LEAVE HER CUTE TEXT MESSAGES. KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS. TRUST HER 0VER EVERY0NE ELSE. TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL. L00K HER IN THE EYES WHEN Y0U TALK T0 HER. LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR. MESS WITH HER HAIR. JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER. INCLUDE HER IN ALL THINGS Y0U D0. F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES. L00K AT HER LIKE SHE'S THE 0NLY GIRL Y0U SEE. TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS ST0P. H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U ARE AROUND Y0UR FRIENDS. WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT Y0U TELL HER Y0U L0VE HER. LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS. GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER. TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK. STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES SICK. WATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE WITH HER KISS HER F0REHEAD. GIVE HER THE W0RLD. WRITE HER LETTERS. LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES. WHEN SHES SAD, HANG 0UT WITH HER. LET HER KN0W SHE'S IMP0RTANT. LET HER TAKE ALL THE PH0T0S 0F Y0U SHE WANTS. KISS HER IN THE RAIN. CALL HER EVERY NIGHT. AND WHEN Y0U FALL IN L0VE WITH HER, TELL HER. AND WHEN Y0U D0 TELL HER. L0VE HER LIKE Y0U NEVER L0VED BEF0RGUYS REP0ST: I'M NOT A PUSSY GIRLS REP0ST:BOYS ARE TOO PUSSY TO DO THIS

I'm hoping most of you will read this cause I would like all that are on my friends list to sign my guestbook that is on my profile under 'Interests' so that I can see where everyone is at compared to me. Thank You and please sign.

YAYYYYYYYY kids are back in school and summer heat is almost over.... thank god this summer has been a long ass one I'm so glad it is over...