Lets see....there are alot of mistakes i have made in the past. but the one i regret the most is the one i made with the most amazing guy in the world! about 5 years ago i started dating michael, one of my exes, and towards the end i felt so pressured by him, i did not want him anymore. towards the end of that 2 year relationship i met a new guy.(which i dumped michael for) this new guy was awesome we got along so good! he would pick me up and we would go swimming, driving around, hanging out with his friends(which was awesome) and ocassionally grabbing a bite to eat. well during all of this my mother and i were not on good terms...we were always bitching basically because i dumped oh wonderful good boy michael (NOT) she really liked mike for some strange reason....oh yeah he sucked up to her like anything! well anyways she knew i dumped him for the new boy. he took me to his house one day and we were making out and my friend calls me (whose house im supposed to be at) and tells me to get to her house now bc mom was flipping out so he takes me there and leaves...the last time it was ever just friendship or something that seemed to be a good thing...mom picks me up and bitches at me....telling me to "never see that bastered who just wants you for sex again." she calls him and says "stay away from my daughter" thinking we had sex. when really all we did was kiss. the end of summer is right around the corner and here i am not knowing what happend and what is going on with him ....we dont really talk since then. well the new school year starts and we see each other, not really talking. well during the end of August, me and one of his friends hook up late one night-alcohol is involved! which i regret soo much! so of course his friend tells him and i get questioned...well that next weekend...i go over to his friends house (take moms ar in middle of night without asking) to go and see him and we hook-up (not that)! well i get in trouble...bc mom finds out and that causes all kinds of shit...then that next day at school i walk up to his car and he rolls up his windows, locks the doors, and turns up the music and ignores me!!??? wtf? so maybe first time sexual experience?? well during this time...i start dating guys....which is fine but not the guy who will admit it! so a few weeks roll around and we occasionally see each other...well we start to hook up, which leads to more hook ups...i start to like this kid, but my "click" and his "click" would not get along. he started having other friends trying to impress them, while im drifting off from mine trying to impress him...i know why it's now...because i really liked him! i know what i did was wrong to him...trying to impress girls, acting better than him(way too many to type) but i never got a chance to tell him i am sorry. i was always to shy. hes gone now...and i don't know if he will come back and that i actually mean it this time...not a relationship but a trusting friendship. just like you said, "theres always that chance, we just need to stay in touch." i dont know why he did some of those things he did...but i want that great friendship that started off about 4 years ago! i will always be here for him no matter what and hope he knows that!!! if not a relationship i want to be his best friend..i will always be there for u and thank you for everything! <<<333
