Today something strange happened. I woke up this morning still down but okay. I felt good knowing that today was a new day. I was frazzled yest. but today I realized that it was okay for then but today I have to be happy. God has me in the waiting... waiting to see if I can love me! I am and I have been and I am still going to love those who can't or won't love me back. Today is an unconditional day. I am going to be me even when no one else understands it or accepts it. A friend told me I live in my own world yest. on top of the other issues I was having. And this friend was right. But, the world I live in gives me hope and the faith I need to face everyday! Yesturday I was giving up on everything. I was defeated! Everything was so wrong... today those same problems are here but I'm not a quitter. I want to thank those who have given me sound advice and hope because Lord knows I couldn't give it to myself! And for those of you who know my problems.... I love you still. Nothing will change that... I realize now that I stepped outside of my box and pushed you to your side. I am sorry for that. I should have known that great love can never really be shared and never tested by a friend. You will always be my friend!
