Shams's blog: "Another mistake..."

Why do so many say they love someone when they don't really know what it means to truly love? Why do they lead them on after they no longer want to be with them? Why still say they love them if it's no longer true? Is it really nesesary to be so cruel? Why try to crush them before you leave? Isn't the act of ripping out their heart when you break it off with them enough? Why is it nesesary to take that extra step and try to destroy them entirerly? Why lie about it after wards? Are they ashamed of what they've done? Or is it they just want to see how long they can string you along for after they've left you? I wish I knew the answers....

I've heard it said that the road to hell is paved with good intentions. For me that's proving true. No matter how good my intentions had been they've brought me nothing but grief and heart ache. They've lead me to my very own personal hell on earth with no end in sight.     I have nothing and no one. I'm completely alone trapped in this prison forged by my own hand..                                                          

I was stupid to ever think that I could find someone who would love me for me. Someone that would always be there for me no matter what. I was stupid to believe that even a mistake like me had a chance to be happy.