JDubz's blog: "Angel?"

As he hides in the corner and she's searching about She sees his right shoe "Daddy I See You" she shouts Hun now it's your turn you hide and I'll seek He looks for a minute and then hears her speak "Daddy I See You" she runs out to hug him, he holds her tight She loves him so much she could never get the hiding part right A game that they played before she's tucked in to her bed He reads her a story til she falls asleep, and a kiss on her head Her mom looks on as the tears in her eyes roll do her face Stopping her daughters memories she felt wasn't her place Her dad passed in the war as he fought for our rights She opens her eyes "Dad I Can See You I Still Love You Goodnight" "Hold On To The Memories" J-Dubz '09

As I stood on the stage and ready to sing to the crowd I couldn't hear the first note my thoughts were to loud Thinking of how I let her leave and walkout my door How the tear on my check should have stopped her and said more I told her I loved her as she was driving away Then I could hear the music as it began to play I started singing my song as my eye dropped a tear Singing loud to my fans and wondering can she hear Does she look to the sky at the same time I pray Is she looking at my picture, I looked at hers today Can she sence that im hurting or am I playing a good game When shes sad is it me thats causing her this pain Can she she that im sorry with out me saying a word Can She Hear what i'm singing cause her song I just heard J-Dubz '09

So I sit here looking at the events in my life Did she mean it when she said she'd be my wife. I think of the promises to those that i have made Did she believe or just think i wanted to get laid. Looking at myself from anothers eyes is the hardest thing to do Did she hear my words when I said to her "I only Love You". Feeling emotions going back and forth through my head Wondering is it destin for me to be alone until I'm dead. Wondering why I feel like this but yet want to survive I wake in the morning breathing no thoughts of suicide. Seeing into the crowd all my friends they shine and smile As I watch there loved one work hard for that extra mile. Knowing it's not them hurting me, it has to be my past Maybe because I don't know how, is why it never last. Always believing theres someone for everyone Just not really knowing how do I get to be that one. I can see her desire to hold me in her arms But it's not for keeps its to fear off the harms. Still standing hoping she'll get that look in her eye And will stay by her side until the day comes When I. J-Dubz

"Picture" As he looked into her eyes he saw a love so deep She didn't have to say a word he held her in his sleep. When he told her how his day was she listened without a word He knew that when he spoke every word would then be heard. Even when he burnt the dinner no complaints she spoke at All He'd kiss her lips and say good night then hang her on the wall. A love so deep a love so strong but yet there was no structure For in his world she was so real but for real she was a picture. J-Dubz

'07 As I laid my head last nite a tear ran down my face The thought of losing love was on my pillow case Being strong is not in site when thinking of her touch Her sent, her look her everything is why this hurt so much When i close my eyes tonight i know she'll be in my dreams Wishing she would understand just how much she means Hoping I can hear her voice whisper in the morning So cute as she says I love you even while she yawning The moments that she has they make me smile all day And how her eyes sparkled when she looks my way Id give my song to have her hand and never let me go I'll try my best to do her right my love then she would know I'd give my sight so she wont hurt when it's going wrong I've never known love like this, This feeling is so strong When I wake up i'll be alone quivers in my heart I admit it really hurts why did I have to start. As I laid my head last night a tear ran down my cheek The beauty in her everymove has made me so damn weak. JW

When your holding hands, while walking in the park Seeing the sparkle in your eyes even when It's dark When your lying in the bed, and laying on his chest Even though he'd like to move he stays to let you rest When you have a day at work you just can't explain So they listen to your hurt not once do they complain When you really need to know what you feel thats wrong Sometimes even the strongest heart isn't all that strong When your sick don't wont to move so they bring you toast Kissing you on your head, you know they love you most When they go to sleep at nite you have to have a kiss So that feelings that you have they would never miss When your hanging with your friends, they always cross your mind Love like this is very rare, and very hard to find When you fight and things are bad you still remain right there just in case your time is through they will know you cared JW

One Second! He always flirted told her how much he wanted her, she would laugh and tell him to shut up. Both trying to find a real answere, feeling and a real touch. Friends always on the phone to each other they would ask what am I doing wrong, To each other they would responed it's just not right yet. Getting a little older 3,4 years pass by many woman he took to the movies, out to eat,clubs and many times he looked for a way to enjoy himself with them. many times she try to feel something trying understand why they never made her knees buckle with a kiss. Both seemed to everyone else as players, Not wanting to be with just one, but yet to one another they knew what was really going on. The for the first time two friends of years ended up on the same stage both out of there known element . All those times on the phone with there stupid reason for trying to love and I don't understands They never knew that one day in one second tides were going to turn. He walked into the room, inside knowing she wanted nothing more than for him to visit her, Her stomach wrapped up like a tornado, On him a smile and a feeling of something not ever felt, but yet still niether knew. As the music played a tear falls down her cheek thinking she was hurt he held her in his arms for comfort, For that moment time stoped and everyone was gone, That may have sparked the flame that could take them were most dont go. With all the normal starts of a relationship not needed because of there many talks as only friends never once really thought there talks were planed for this. the time was never right nor never seen. As the night had ended there normal chat before they left was not the same he said he felt something she agreed but niether still thought they should cross that line, She then turned away as he said you need to make a decision not even meaning about him she replied "I need someone else to make it for me" he grab her arm and turned her toward him, put his hand on her cheek and kissed her, they kissed, And in one second one small moment in time what seemed to wrong just proved to be right. In One Second two people who always were connected but never knew finaly found the feeling they both wanted in that first kiss. JW

Your feeling empty, and no ones there close your eyes, clear your mind. You might hear a voice or see a light It's them there all the time. Its your angel to show you ways to help you count the cost. So you can return to the life you love, get back what you have lost. The strengths in your mind not in your legs dont run break the curse. If you feel it hurt and your going to fall don't give up just look you'll see. Someone can help you stay on your feet family, friends, a stranger like me. Your feeling feeling full everyones there open your eyes, open your mind. You know all the voices, and sites you've seen have been there all the time. Now that your there show them the way help them count the cost. Tell them a story of your life and how you got back all that you lost. They may have it bad with nowhere to go but you have had it worse. Teach them the strength with in your heart and help them break the curse. Give them a hug and kiss on the check tell them just what you see. Hold them above the water and touch there soul there angel you could be. JW

If you hold your head up high they will see your pride The pride I see within your heart there's no need to hide There's something in your eyes that everyone can see There's even something more to it when they smile at me I don't know why you worry you have them in your hand With the good that you can give your always in command There's a strength inside your soul that no one else can get If they doubt the perfect you the they dont know you yet I'd give my legs, my sight, my song to take the hurt away Then you could live your life without anything in your way If I could write the way I felt I wont know how to start Because the way I feel for you is deeper then my heart Id tell you how to keep a smile if I could feel your scares But I can not so I'll just say that I am always yours If you should ever need a hand mine in out for you Here's my shoulder if you need there's nothing I wont do JW