Hello world...this is me. And that's all there is.
I don't know WHERE life decides to take a person. 6 months ago I had it all figured out. And now...now it's all changed in the name of love.
6 months ago I was ignorant. My life was a bike, college, rocks, woods, music, and hard crashes. 6 months ago, my life was all about the keep on keepin on's. It was about wakin up every mornin to this dead hollowness that you drowned out with music, pain, and the illusion of bein busy. 6 months ago my life was all about workin to keep a roof over my head and gas in my car and food on my table. 6 months ago it was all about doin anything to keep from living. Because living...I was slowly dying.
It was not caring that you crashed, that you got hit by another car, that you fell off the rocks, that you slammed headfirst into a tree. It was...hey, you know...this is life. And it fuckin sux. I got no one but myself to live for. And who am I to live for after all? Worst I'm gunna do's make a couple people cry...but hell, 6 months more I'll be unknown.
She says she doesn't know me...but how do I show her who I am any more than I already have? Who am I? It's easy...I'm the person you see when you wake up, the person who comes to get you after work, the person who loves nothing more than to wait on you hand and foot, the person who finds the greatest joy in something like cleaning your house. I'm the person who fears losing you...your trust, your warmth, your affection...not just lose you as in there's the door. I'm the person who lies awake at night watching dreams pass over your face thinking about how lucky I am to have been blessed by your love, beauty, and strength. I'm the person who would do damn near anything to make you happy.
Just tell me what you don't know. Tell me what you want to know. And I'll show you. I'll tell you.
