I have been thinking about a lot of things (all good) that has helped me become the person I am today. First of all, my friend Colonel_Deckard and renactor are just one of the best examples as to who I am. Sure, Renactor doesn't know me as well yet, so he still has quite a bit to learn about me. But Colonel_Deckard is the one who can tell you the things that make me tick. Think that is why when I need to talk about being frustrated he is always the one I go to, and he does the same for me. I have so many friends on here that it doesn't go without saying that you guys are definitely the best in the world.
Today my parents are celebrating 39 years of marriage which is something I have been grateful for as one of their children. My parents basically had their marriage while my dad served in the army right out of high school, he met my Uncle who fixed my mom and dad up together. 39 years later and they are still together. Love is something that either you know you have it or you just fake it for the sake of others so that they don't know what is really going on. Not in this case. When I look back to the day I was married in 1997 I had all of these thoughts going through my head. Was I going to be the wife he wanted me to be, was I really going to be as happy as I thought I was? I guess we all go through that state of mind when we get married. It's something to know what is in your heart and it's something else when you marry the first person that comes along just because the one you really want isn't around to stop you from making the choices you make beforehand. There are times I knew what I wanted and at the time I thought they were the absolute best choices in the world. Just leave it to me to be a hopeless romantic who wants the romance that I have always wanted. Some might understand this and others may not.
