I have been beaten by my own monster that has been sleeping all this time. When I thought it was peacefully, left out of my consciousness, unaware of my presence. But once again, I was wrong; it majestically stood above my weak heart and gave me a deep strong stare from it beastly eyes.
His name is jealousy.
I realize that I have a part of jealousy myself, when I thought it just a kiddy stuff in term of two mature individuals. He gets close to this new person, and it drove me crazy. When I say I’m crazy that means my heart bombing itself in so many little spot and so many painful times. It was a bit of surprise actually that I have such a feeling growing inside me. Never had one before, not in my previous relationship, but this time it awaken suddenly and I lose control of it. I have so many thought raging inside this tiny head of mine and feeling tired of this endless battle within me.
First there is desire
Then... passion!
Then... suspicion!
Jealousy! Anger! Betrayal!
Where love is for the highest bidder,
There can be no trust.
Without trust,.
There is no love!
Jealousy.
Yes, jealousy...
Will drive you... mad!
“Don’t waste your time on jealousy, sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind, the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.”
